can i just have one more moondance wih you. `my love.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

i will sing in the darkness and dance in the rain! i will rejoice in His love again. cos His love makes me dance and sing and laugh so hard i get a tummyache but ultimately get abs so hard, no bull can ever knock me down.

HA.

i will be strong for His strength is with me always. there's seriously nothing i can do without Him by my side and in my heart. forever and ever.
i will love my God forever.

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some girl caused me to fall down and knock my head on the ground yesterday. hurt quite a bit but then i am not esther if i didnt get back up on my feet again. i realise that by myself, i am not a strong person. but then with my Lord Jesus Christ, i am beyond strong. i am invincible. nothing can get me down. and i can just smile through the pain and then realise it doesnt hurt anymore!

i just want to burst sometimes.

Godrocksmysocks (: - 27.8.05

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

i am overjoyed.

i just went for the vcf welcome supper for sheares hall ministry and it just feels awesome to be in the midst of the people of God. there's nothing i love more than worshipping with my fellow believers.

of course something else makes me smile. and that is my wonderful mr soccer! whoohoo. i love soccer so much. (: heh. and i've received good news of something special that means alot to me but then i dont know.. i'm scared this joy will be shortlived because it may just die after a while. like what if things dont turn out the way they're supposed to be? but then i know everything happens for a reason. that's alright. it still makes me smile alot now!

we have been having inter-block games and today was basketball. i am proud to say that the girls and guys basketball have made it to the finals! that makes me happy too. haha i played for the girls but then it was as if i was pretty redundant. such that the opponents didnt even bother guarding me. hahh but that's ok. i had fun. we all did. (:

i am exercising so much now i am so proud of myself! wheee. caron! haha i am exercising! great stuff.

i want to dedicate my all. (:

Godrocksmysocks (: - 23.8.05

Saturday, August 20, 2005

you blow the hot and cold. then make me mad. so mad.

Godrocksmysocks (: - 20.8.05

Saturday, August 13, 2005

so one week has gone by. my first week as a uni student attending lectures. and i am rather excited! but then at the same time, a bit scared cos of the workload. however, i have nothing to fear. for He knows the plans He has for me. and they are plans to prosper me, not to harm me. plans to give me hope and a future! yes. so then, i dont have to be worried about anything.

i attended all my introduction lectures this week. i didnt pon any though i was super tempted to. haha i love my theatre lecture! oh man. i totally want to major in theatre but having a theatre degree may just be too narrow a scope to have. howww. and i havent bought my lit books yet. i have to get them on monday and start reading. must finish one book in two weeks. i am a bit disturbed by the first book we're doing though. lolita. erm. when i finish reading it then i'll figure a compromise. meanwhile, i pray God's strength keeps me going.

so many things have been going on and there are a million more things to come. big sigh. some niggling problem at the back of my head. i dont even know why i should be bothered. why on earth should i make myself feel a tad litle miserable when life is so fun and full of pretty and pleasant stuff. maybe because i care too much? i shouldnttttttt.

i'm going home. and i'll see my church friends again. and i'll feel the immense joy i did during the eight months break. then i'll be back and enjoy my uni life and friends again.

see, life is looking up and good when you look on the right side!
(:

Godrocksmysocks (: - 13.8.05

Friday, August 12, 2005

i just want to repeat it. and i want to go away and hide. rahhh.
God, give me Your peace and Your promise of eternal companionship. i love You.

Godrocksmysocks (: - 12.8.05

Monday, August 08, 2005

i think i think too much. i think so much that i turn simple things into worries and problems that plague my life. why oh why.

i want to be simple. and i actually think i am somehow on the way there! praise God. just this bugging problem that i think alot and all the time. is it good to think so much? i dont know. bahh.

school starts on wednesday. i thank my Heavenly Father for granting me my wishes to get all the modules i bidded for! and a special special thanks to
YUANTING and FELICIA!
thanks yuanting for helping me understand all that stuff i needed to know about bidding and modules. and thanks feli for helping ting the year before so that she could help me! haha ting, i told you i would post a huge thanks here for you and feli! cos both of you really totally deserve it! smilesmilesmile.
and yay, my timetable rocks! counting lectures alone, i only have school on wednesdays and thursdays. and i planned my tutorials in such a way that they only fall on tuesdays wednesdays and thursdays! so prayerfully i get those strategic tutorials. and then it will just mean i have no classes on mondays and fridays! yayyy. (:
i am a happy girl.

my face is redddd. cos of standing in the hot sun on rag day. and it hurt quite a bit the first two days. but nowwww, i'm just red. my mum got a shock. haha and i cut my hair yesterday! but then i think there's not much difference visually. cant really tell i think. but then i feel its lighter! that is the difference.

Godrocksmysocks (: - 8.8.05

Saturday, August 06, 2005

one week of hostel life has finally drawn to a close. my first week ever. wahh its reallyyyy fun. but that's because lessons hae not started yet. so wait till lessons start next week, i think i'll start thinking of other stuff. hahah

one week, ten hours of badminton and volleyball, aching muscles for two days, supper, fruits, roof top dinners and meetings, meeting my new acer baby, getting to know others, dancing with my block E friends, going mad, losing two kg, witnessing dionne kill a cockroach, walking out to west coast 24hour macs for breakfast at 5am, watching movies in ziyi's room, cutting magazines, laughing nonstop, getting laughed at, being sunburnt. and really enjoying myself. there's really so much more to say.

but for now my energy is sapped. and i actually do miss my hostel life, now that i am back home for the weekend. perhaps it will be entirely different when lessons and studying begins proper. well of course.

i love block E of sheares hall. haha we do bond pretty well and they are the ultimate fun bunch of people to be with. then again, perhaps its for the playing part.. haha (:

Godrocksmysocks (: - 6.8.05

Thursday, August 04, 2005

thank you everyone who cared. (:

anywayyyy. i finally got my laptop! after waiting for so long. my acer baby is finally here and its lovely! ahhh. i am happpppy! (:

i am in the hostel now and its quite an experience. i dont know. sometimes i feel like some stuff aint the way i am. but then i am put here for a reason right? so i shall make the best out of it. just that i dont really prefer life to be centred around a certain topic, bgr. ROAR. not my thing! bahh

school starts next week! i am excited!

Godrocksmysocks (: - 4.8.05