Wednesday, June 29, 2005
i wish i can have a party. i will invite all my friends and fill the house. we will have nonstop flow of food, glorious food. no one will be bored, no one will be left out. because everyone is having fun and creating their own fun. everyone will be dressed casually and no one will bother about who looks good and who doesnt. come in your PJs for all i care. then we will blast the music and we will dance all night till we are tired and drop down on the couch and grin at each other with lazy eyes. and that's when the jazz ensemble will do their thing and entertain us till our sleepy eyes close off from the world. and then we will all get up at 3am and continue the party. cos everyone is just in the mood. and after a while, we will all give up trying to be fun and go to sleep for good. and we wont have to pack up the place after that, cos it will just miraculously be clean. just at the snap of the finger.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 29.6.05
and yes, esther tan has officially left the building for good. i am no longer an associate at pan pacific hotel, singapore. i am no longer a waitress serving breakfast to executives, businessmen and the likes. i no longer have to greet people with a big smile and say good morning and make coffee at the same time. i dont clear tables of used plates, juice glasses, coffee cups, cutlery and napkins. i do not have to wash dishes and dry them and stack them nicely. neither do i have to collect stock and change linen and fold napkins. and my feet need not hurt no more!
still, its pretty nostalgic after its all confirmed over. once i had it all, too much in fact. and now, i have absolutely nothing. then it leaves space in my heart for new things to fill it up! big empty spaces for new excitements to take its place and make me feel whole again. its interesting how each experience comes and goes, but some of it stays there in your heart. like residue from trying to get chewing gum off from a surface. then new chewing gum in a different flavour and brand comes along and sticks to your heart again and when the experience is over, the chewing gum is torn off but still, some stays. and over time, you have a myriad of different kinds of chewing gum leftovers all stuck together. different colours, different flavours, different brands. and sure, some kinds of chewing gum leftovers will be more compared to others. and the myriad of colours is just our LIFE. and because the residues keep building up, it never lessens. and thus we keep expanding. our whole life keeps expanding with each experience and makes us fuller person. but each time the most recent chewing gum is peeled off, we crave for more. so yes, chewing gum is addictive.
my mum said, i am starting school soon. so i ought to work my brain more. read more books, write more stuff. i have always thought alot.. each time i'm by myself with my own thoughts, i just think. and i relate real life stuff in a metaphorical way with the philosophical part of life. and that's when i think, OH NO. i think too much.
ok i think i probably lost everyone at the top part. so down to some interesting stuff! i had a wedding dinner on monday. my cousin's wedding. my family is HUGE! i have like, SO many relatives. even some of which i never saw before and cant remember how they look like now. anyway, the highlights are.. i have a GRANDaunty who is 48years old. not my aunty, but my dad's aunty! and she dyed her whole head BLONDE. oh man. and my other GRANDaunty is about 50plus and she wore a bareback dress! it wasnt really bareback. just chiffon down from the shoulders to the waist. and chiffon is translucent! her figure is pretty amazing for a lady of that age. OH MAN. and my grandfather's younger brother looks exactly like him. so cute! hahahah how adorable.
i love my grandmother and grandfather. looking at them happy makes me smile uncontrollably too. i think that is pure joy. how i wish they can be there when i get married. but i am only 19.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 29.6.05
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
i love michael buble. ah like, melt. haha i bet chin will be rolling his eyes.
not the first time.and the big news of the week.
MY LAST DAY AT WORK IS TOMORROW.
and i am happyhappyhappy. cos work is pretty taxing. waking up at 530am when the world is still dreaming blissfully. putting makeup - i dont like to. and having aching feet at the end of the day. tralala. so there. (:
i will finally have time to myself to do the stuff i like and want to. praise God for time!
and i am a happy happy happy girllllll! still am. (:
oh yes. mark is SUPER funny! hahahahha he asked me what i wanna be when i grow up, and i asked him back the question.. and he said,
to be a good personOH NO! hahahahhahaha
Godrocksmysocks (: - 28.6.05
Thursday, June 23, 2005
I AM SO SHOCKED.
i typed a whole lot and it all disappeared just when it was done. cos i accidentally pressed a wrong key. then maybe it happened cos i aint supposed to publish something i wrote in there. but what? ah well.
i like movie marathons! but i rather watch movies i havent watched before. hahha still, pirates of the caribbean rocked, cos of johnny depp! (:
i tried to bake brownies, and they were heavenly but a little burnt. then after a while, they turned into biscuits! hard as cookies. but joy still liked them, so that's ok.
brandon tried to hit me with a pillow so he can running towards me but he slipped and fell on his butt! that was the highlight of the night.
yongen's blanket rocks, though stef claimed it was smelly. it's just a good thing i had a blocked nose. still, it was really comfortable.
i had a pillow fight with sourpig rachel, xiang and shuhan and obviously i won. cos i am powerful!
caron and i finally did our bread thing. yay. and we promised not to watch finding neverland till we watch it together. that will probably be after her O levels.
i think i am quitting work soon. i dont feel like working anymore. the novelty worn off i guess..
i just watched love actually! dengzhi lent me the vcd and i was, super happy! finally this mountain turtle gets to watch it. call me suaku, call me slow. but i'm still happy! and i love christmas all the more! i cant wait for it to come. again.
initial D just came out. ooo. mr EDISON CHEN. i love.
looking good mister
Godrocksmysocks (: - 23.6.05
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
just so you know i'm still around!
my internet is like, stalling. and retarding. and frustrating all of us like mad. that's probably why i havent even been online much. garrrhh.
so the ym camp is over and done. i let my temper get the better of me on one night. felt hugely bothered by it after that. but then darren was really nice to reassure me that in the body of Christ, there is no condemnation. there is nothing that can stand in the way of good friendships for the Lord. cos our God is far bigger than any problem. i was smiling after that! generally the camp was just awesome. though some games went a bit haywired and the prog was a bit messed up. of course i would feel guilty cos i was programs IC. but then i think things just went generally fine. first time for many of us. but God never fails. (:
this camp proved to be a bit more headache cos of the rowdy people. I THINK YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. barbarians; cavemen AHEM. like seriously. make so much noise, laugh so much, talk so much. and must respond to everything i say. roar. but without them i'm sure the camp wouldnt have been the same. there wont be enough noise and laughter. and definitely scotchtape on their pants. ahh i almost fainted when i saw it. and they ran towards me with the scotchtape, wanting to tape my berms too. NO THANK YOU. i like my pants the way they are. gabriel soh is just truly mad and noisy.
i'm talking to ben ng now and he is super funny! he was telling me his family is in thailand now.
time for a little 'home improvement' says:
tt last time i went there i was swamped wif man turn WOman
looking good mister says:
haha transversites! you're too irresistable lah
time for a little 'home improvement' says:
if onli realy women swamped me...
time for a little 'home improvement' says:
i dont like imitation
oh my goodnesss. i could fall off my chair laughing.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 21.6.05
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
ooo.
the camp is tomorrow! this is unbelievable. but it will be good, cos God is in control. yay.
so we'll be lost from civilisation until sunday. and in the meantime, we'll have our fun but miss you as well.
i am a happy girlllll. (:
but i miss you, you, you, you..
Godrocksmysocks (: - 8.6.05
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
this is actually a monday post.i am actually sad that i cant work anymore this week. but i told them i cannot cos of the youth camp. i just lurrrrve it there. hhaah i think it wont be too easy to leave when i have to quit and start school in august. OH WELL. i am not even keen on the money aspect. i just like work and the people there. and the perks of it all. haha. we had like 99 people who registered for breakfast today but i think only about 60plus people turned up. and amazingly we managed to wash and dry all the plates bowls cups cutlery by 12pm. we only started washing at about 930am.
i forgot to serve a lady her eggs this morning. i felt SO bad. cos it totally slipped my mind. but she was really nice about it. some people tend to be friendly. but some think they just simply derserve it and dont even respond when you try to be cheery about
thank you sir/mam, have a nice day. at least look back and smile right. dont have to be so yaya papaya.
after work, i had to rush down to NUS to drop off the OAM Form A. cos if i didnt by today, i wouldnt even get into NUS! and it would be really retarded at this point in time if i forgot to submit. cos NUS already accepted me. i took like VERY LONG to get to NUS, just to drop off one piece of paper and leave. that simple action took me just 3minutes. what man! i am so gonna stay in the NUS hostels. it took me another 45minutes odd just to get back home. HAII. but all is good, cos God is good. and He was the one in control! yes. finally i am an official student of NUS! wowwww. the feeling is exhilarating yet scary. yet simply exciting! but then i dont feel like going back to school again. i like my life now. bahh. pat was just making me think of it today when she said stuff about the new chapter of life and growing up.
so yes, we finally met up for dinner! it was to celebrate wen's birthday. wen, xiu, sab, neo, pat, kang and myself. FINALLY wongkangwei actually made it. and this time she wasnt too late. i remember the other time we agreed to meet at esplanade and kang never made it. cos we left before she could arrive. HAHA. but this time was good. we had great time recalling our sec3 and 4 lives, just sitting there laughing so hard (mostly at kangwei). we took quite a few photos, especially outside cine. everyone like lost weight lah. except kangwei. and myself. xiu stayed the same. pat seriously lost. as compared to the last time i saw her. it was pretty fun! after the farewells, sab, pat and i had our part two. hahha we went to 7-11 to buy icecream (where i got terribly cheated) and walked all the way from cine to dhobyghaut. i think it was pat's idea.
i am so sleepy now.
i am meeting nim for breakfast tomorrow! macdonalds breakfast. it's always the trustworthy one. haha except they should just stop making their prices soar any higher. or they'll lose one loyal but infrequent customer. that's like about $6 every two months or so. HAHA. i'm still loyal ok. just that i dont go that often.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 7.6.05
Thursday, June 02, 2005
i have a weird tummy feeling now. i think i ate stuff that was dirty or ate stuff with my dirty hands! rahhh. i really hope it's not foodpoisoning.
i am a happy girl. i love my work! everyone there is like super nice and funny. especially benedict! he tried to act cool when he was taking the tray from the shelf but it was about to fall off his hand. and he tried to balance it while still looking cool but FAILED. it was SO funny. when it fell onto the floor in the end, i couldnt stop laughing! and he wasnt too happy about me laughing. he threatened to pour his jug of cold water on me. i think he thinks i'm gila.
like, there's just one thing that bothers me now but then, i will just leave it in God's hands. i'm not going to mope about it. but then i WILL still try to solve it. cos it's worth it! hahah God grant me wisdom please. (:
i'm looking at everything positively! at least there is the trend there. hahah i guess i'm just happy.
went to church for HOP today with darren and evelyn. HOP was good as usual. i like HOP.
we had camp committee meeting from 8pm to 1am in the morning the day before so we purposely pushed HOP one hour later. haha campers, you all better appreciate the camp! oh man. like towards the end of the meeting, we were a bit loony already. evelyn and i were trying to memorise verses at 1am and darren was putting his hands into his shirt. and andrew couldnt sit still. and we ate cone ice cream at 12plus. oh well. it's still worth it! cos we really think this camp will work out fine. God is in control! the camp will really rock. so many exciting things in store! the whole purpose of the camp and the games. i really pray that the youths will walk in the right path. (:
met brandon and dengzhi after that to discuss brandon's study plan. is four months alot? i think it's really little! to start studying now till his exams. four months is like, no time! (haha i'm starting to sound like joy!) but then, i'm also scared he will burn out or whatever. then again, he might not even. hhaha we'll see. and brandon cut his hair today! err. WOW! hahahahah more of skin than cut. quite a change; shocking and all. but it's a change. i hope he just learns to love his hair. haha it'll grow brandon!
(like how dengzhi's leg hair grows.)i ate scoopz ice cream today! durian flavour! wheee. evelyn! hahaha it rocks! thanks for introducing it to me! even brandon was smitten by it. hahah
went to dengzhi's house after that and julia, dengzheng, xiang and aunty ivy were absolutely shocked by brandon's hair. haha who wouldnt be!
i'm a happy girl. i think winning eleven is a nice game! just that i'm not good at it. YET.
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lionel. dont say
wah lau at me ok.. i really dont know! haha my dad paid and i dont probe. so there.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 2.6.05
