Saturday, April 30, 2005
Application Status
You are successful in your application for admission.
yay!
i got into NUS!
praise God! ahhhh! really praise God for everything! again and again! i knew He was totally in charge. from the beginning to the end. wowheeeeee! I LOVE MY LORD JESUS CHRIST! ahhhh! i'm just overflowing with happiness now. hhahah. wow!
i am amazed at Your love
i am amazed at Your mercy
i was initially just freaking out cos i hadnt heard from them in forever. and it seemed like people were telling me they already got their applications approved already.
now i know the plans You have for me. plans to prosper and not to harm me. plans to give me hope and a future!
You have planned something better for me, so that together with me, they will be made PERFECT!
i am wonderfully and beautifully loved.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 30.4.05
Thursday, April 28, 2005
1. I WENT JOGGING TODAY! hurry justin, say you're proud of me! hahaha yes i did. i really went jogging. but gave myself an excuse and didnt jog like a thousand kilometres or something. hahah but still, it's a START!
2. my dad just bought a new tv. yay. now we can watch tv downstairs! grinnnnn.
3. my rashes are quite horrid now. and i have no idea what made it appear again.
4. the OC is just full of you like me and after a while, let's all exchange girlfriends.
5. i went to andrew oh's house to watch a hindi movie! which i cant remember the title of.. with yewling and winnie. it's really nice!
6. i am hungry. AGAIN.
7. i kinda like my hair now. hahahahaha (:
Godrocksmysocks (: - 28.4.05
Monday, April 25, 2005
my computer's weird! it cant access normal sites like hotmail and stuff.. like it will just remain blank. ahh. SO strange. before this i couldnt even access blogger. but amazingly, i managed to! (: praise God.
yay. we're going sentosa tomorrow! nim bev and i. i'm really excited and happy that we're finally doing something more outdoor-ish. haha. and we're gonna save money by bringing food for a mini picnic. haha bev's bringing bread, i'm bringing tuna egg mayo and nim's bringing drinks. yayyyy. super fun. we can finally tan and exercise!
anyway, recap of last week.
tuesday
MALAYSIA! with my sister, mich, charlene, chin, andrew oh and law, ben, matt. we went to city square; shopping! of course the guys were pretty bored after a while.. but the four girls had greeeaaaat fun. (as usual) i mean, it's shopping! haha but in the end, i bought many things for other people, and only two items for myself. i finally got a pair of boardshorts and a pair of shoes. the shoes are kinda hurting my toe now actually.. cos my second toe is really long. like, supernaturally long! haha so it kinda pushes against the front of the shoe. and it's either my left foot is bigger than the right, or the shoe on the left side is smaller than the right. i dont know which i'd rather believe, cos it seems possible that my feet are not all that proportionate. hahaMISS IRIS LONG was supposed to meet me, but she was LAZY. oh well. my sister bought quite a lot of things for herself. we bought three tops and a cap for my brother, cds for my dad.. and a pair of beautiful shoes for my mum's birthday. she LOVES it, i must add. but it's really so her. like, totally. it's pink and highhighhigh-heeled. haha but it's really pretty. suits her! we hung around city square till about five plus six in the evening, because andrew oh was doing his hair. woah, ok. haha entirely different! but refreshing. i prefer his now hairstyle! more hip. after shopping was malaysia part two. we went to eat seafood! it was like, drooool. haha we had oatmeal prawns, steamed fish, sambal stingray, sambal sotong, beggars chicken, deer meat, and i cant remember what else. it was really cheap too! we saw so many chinese malaysian students, and most of them were in pairs - a guy and a girl. haha oh well. someone noted that all their hair was like, the same. and just looking at them, i couldnt help but be reminded of lorr. yeaaa. mmm anyway, after we returned from malaysia, we went on to part three of the day! we went to eat SUPPER! haha like someone tell me we're NOT pigs. we met mich, who had to go back earlier with charlene and couldnt stay for dinner, at parkway gelare and they just kept pigging out. i didnt eat except steal a mouthful or two from my sister.. cannot stuff anymore down. like, BLOATTTT. they were amazing! haha niven called at night, and he was being the same ol annoying self that is pretty endearing AT TIMES. note i said, at times. hahah my sister and i walked all the way home after that, lugging our shopping bags and dragging my injured knee. happy and satisfied. -grrinnnn. (:
wednesday
i finally met up with nim bev and GLORY! haha it's been ages since we last met up.. and it was really time spent well. we went to ps, cafe cartel to eat. shared a whole meal and got so bloated after that again. i wore my new shoes, which i discovered hurt my feet quite a bit. bummer. we went to spotlight where we fooled around and took photos in the middle of the corridor of the shops! of ourselves. haha duhh, like so typical. then we went to eat icecream at macs. the wonderful hot fudge sundae! i like! took more silly photos and a video of nim doing a silly dance with her hands. then said our goodbyes as glory begged bev to go to forever21 with her and nim went home, and i went to meet evelyn and the andrews! we watched the interpreter!! whhhoooo. good show. haha it's pretty nice but overall i think nicole kidman wasnt too convincing. because i see her as a glamorous moulinrouge kind of actress, not a white african. so it was kinda hard to watch the show with a new perspective, while the original one dances around in my head from start to end. but then again, she looked really good though her hair fell all over her face half the time. she can pull off the messy yet glam look, in my humble opinion. haha mich came a little late for the movie but she still managed to catch most of the show nonetheless. then after that, we went for supper!!! at the famous AB & ABC prata shop outside my house. called my sister to join us.. then i thought of calling ben ng too, cos he lives really near me as well. and he was so funny; he agreed to come and eat supper with us even though he didnt ask who was gonna be there and i didnt tell him! haha he's super funny. we joked a whole lot and only got home at about 11plus. then my sister and i decided to watch miss congeniality 2 on vcd! haha yes, madness. but the cd was a little messed up so we didnt get to watch the whole show. and after that it wasnt playing well. so we gave up and went to sleep.
thursday
i met darren and evelyn in the early morning for House of Prayer! i like HOP. cos i like praying. haha what better way to spend your time! we prayed really long this time. and it felt good after that. like, time spent well! HOP is every thursdays and i do look forward to it every week! evelyn and i then finally had our first magazine com meeting. haha like we are the only two on the com and we never had a meeting till now. but it was alright, we got quite a few things decided on. i was supposed to meet my sister after that to watch S diaries but it wasnt showing at TM, and we were lazy to go all the way to cine and spend money too. so we ended up spending the rest of the day rearranging our room! so now our beds are right beside each other. shiok, i tell you. cos our stuff dont fall off the bed and it's like a more liberating feeling. have more space to roll around and sprawl. hahahah you get what i mean. (:
friday
a nothing-much day. i just met my sister at parkway for lunch and i developed photos.. then went home and arranged photos and ate dinner and slept. oh yea, got a little annoyed or quizzical about something at night while talking online. like, huh? goodness. but then, i'm trying my best to understand. because some people are really quite hard to get along with. attitude problem, maybe? but then i dont wanna say, cos it's not nice at all.
saturday
i was supposed to meet brandon at 2pm to help him with maths. but he asked me to be late because he may be late. hahaha how thoughtful. anyway, it ended up a really fruitless session. because his whole cellgroup was present and they were making so much noise. talking and listening to music. how to study! oh man. and then i helped brandon with two questions, in which the calculations were both wrong. i wanted to dig a hole and hide my face, except if i did i would just end up on the first floor of church. then daryl and joseph laughed at me. i'm so embarrassed! and i realise that writing it here doesnt really help anyway. HAHA. but who cares. anyway they are really like hooligans lah. i'm sorry to say. haha ok if any of you are reading this, I AM SORRY but i really thought so after that short session with you all. hhaha. and that daryl, he kinda made up stuff about me that i wish he didnt, and grandly told his cellgroup, though i probably deserved it. haha you see, that day i saw him in town and i really thought i saw him with a girl. REALLY. like, not kidding. i seriously thought i saw a girl walking beside him and thought they were together. so i teased him about it when i saw him in church the next day and then his cellgroup got to know about it too.. cos duh, i teased him in front of his cellgroup. but he kept denying and i thought he denied because was shy but i really didnt know that he denied because it was the truth! HAHA. and so because i was with niven when i saw him then, shopping for nim's birthday present, he turned the joke on me and started making fun of me being out with a guy. like DUH. see, i totally deserved it. anyway, during the (attempted) study session on saturday, they suddenly brought it up again. and this time i already said sorry to daryl for mistaking stuff but he still went ahead and made fun of me together with them. i didnt know whether to laugh, cry or puke. like, hello.
DONT KILL ME.
haha ok, end of the daryl story.
evelyn and i had a publicity item for youthcamp and it turned out really funny! haha she acted as my daughter and i was like recalling stuff about my youth in year 2005. we were acting like we were in year 2025. haha SUPER funny. so she was there pretending to look through a photo album which contained photos of me in the youth camp.. and she asked me what was so fun about the youth camp. so we started talking about it and GOOD THING people laughed. at least they were a little entertained. and then evelyn cleverly inserted a line, hey mummy! was this the camp where you met daddy?! and chin told me that it will definitely invite alot of making-fun-of-me sessions. i'm sad. BUT youthcamp will really be fun! (i hope)
cellgroup went well. attendance was rather good and the discussion time was frutiful. thank God for that. phew. i was pretty worried but after that chuili reassured me and said it was good. i'm grateful! for everything. i really wanna make cellgroup a first priority now. God please help me. (:
after that, jon and i went home and I COOKED DINNER! yes! i did! i cooked seafood fried rice. wowwwww. even i am amazed! haha it turned out really tasty and i am not saying that because i am biased towards myself, but really! boosts my own confidence. yay!
sunday
early morning at EIGHT THIRTY AM, i met faithful-nest to help them with chinese. they are insane. eat and talk. that's all they do. haha but rubez is seriously really mad. so are susanna and desiree and eunice. all madddd. draw all over me. i wonder how jolene and shihui have proper cellgroup. i hope they're not like that during cell. haha
service was good. the speaker, mr ronald seet is funny! and i did learn quite a bit from him. God uses all of us for different things! all our brokenness and accidents. but they are not accidents, they are God's divine appointments! (i just read that in daily bread today too!)
joy and i went to parkway to eat lunch. BANMIAN! yay! then we bought ice durian chendol and ice chngtng for dessert. ahah my long awaited! we went to the library where i slept for SUPER long. haha i'll elaborate about my horrid sleep another day. and the creepy guard (again) and the lady beside me. hahaha
dinner was at cafecartel with my parents! for my mum's birthday celebration. yayyy. cafecartel never fails me. haha but like, overload. i've had it twice in a week! still, it's good and satisfying. and FATTENING. wahaha. anyway we gave the shoes to my mum only today.. as in the ones we bought from msia. we hid it in my cupboard and she couldnt stop beaming when she saw them. i'm really happy that she's happy! i love to see others happy. hahaha (:
monday (today)
met brandon at 3pm to help him with maths again. he has short attention span! i dont know what else to say. haha.
wow if you have read all the way till here, i must applaud you. cos you're persevering and determined. you deserve a medal.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 25.4.05
Friday, April 22, 2005
just last night. i (bloat.) was talking to justin online. and he was trying to send me sonething. an mp3 file that was called sweety the chick. look at what followed.
bloat. says:
haha sweety the chick? i thought of chickens.
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
he is a chicken
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
haha
bloat. says:
OH.
bloat. says:
it's a he?! i thought a she!
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
she he dun noe la
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
so androgenous
bloat. says:
haha maybe it's a shim.
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
hahaha shim...
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
i havent seen any shims here
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
not like in singapore
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
so many
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
haha
bloat. says:
hahahah! that day my friend and i saw on the train. SO funny.
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
wads so funny/?
bloat. says:
the shim even had boobs. but it was pretty flat so we were kinda sure it wasnt transplant or something. but instead just muscle. like vin diesel!!!!
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
???????
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
oh man
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
dats sick man
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
i mean
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
boobs or muscles?
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
moobs
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
or boocles
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
haha
bloat. says:
EWWWW
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
dun make fun man, boocles are damn hard to get leh
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
have to train damn hard and pull the skin alot so they fill out the way they want it to
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
haha
bloat. says:
haha you're gross lah.
bloat. says:
vin diesel has boocles!
then..
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
haha anyway i think betta head off
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
boobnite esta
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
breast well and seeya soon
dingdingdingdingdingdingding says:
=)
HAHAHAHA. justin is SO funny!!
Godrocksmysocks (: - 22.4.05
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
i'm just not entirely pleased with myself. things are just going wrong! why cant things be much simpler? i am so not happy with myself, the way things are. i am not blaming God, definitely, because i know the problem lies with me. not Him. He wont harm me. so i am the only one who is harming myself. i am my own worst enemy.
i didnt get the job for the world economical forum. i think about it and i just get so frustrated within. i mean, seriously i really needed it. and God was so nice to provide that opportunity. because i prayed that i'd get a job and the badly needed income. but now it's gone, taken away. and what am i left with? nothing. but then, God give and takes away. it was not mine for a reason. and i pretty much know what the reason is. then again, i didnt even go and look for a job. this job planted itself before me.
but why is it always like that? why is it that things always appear before me and get me excited, but then they are taken away from me even before i can enjoy it. like the essay writing competition last year in school. at first they told me i got first. then after letting me get all happy for about a week, they tell me just the day before the prize presentation in school that they decided to change and gave me third instead. how unfair could that be? it really hurt my feelings. and that time when i was chosen to be emcee for the NYAA awards presentation in school, but after a while they told me i couldnt be. and the other time when i was gonna be chosen as emcee for a teacher's day concert and then it was taken away again. it happened in sec four too. same old story, same old nightmare, all pre-rehearsed. why does that always happen? then in the beginning of this year i was even asked to act in a tv serial which would be a popular hit and stuff and they got my hopes all up so high but then the guy never contacted me although he said he would; not even to say they had chosen someone else or decided to scrap the serial.
i am just SO upset with all these failures in life. i am absolutely not at all happy about all this nonsense. i wish i could actually be presented with some hope and then find myself actually succeeding in it.
ughh. it definitely does not help that when both of us signed up for the thing together and only one of us got it. at first i was told that both of us got it. and i was overjoyed. but then one day changed all that. i didnt get the job after all. maybe it could have been easier news to accept if both of us didnt get it. but then it just hurts quite a bit now. i know it's definitely not evelyn's fault or anything. not like she did anything to make sure she got in or whatever and couldnt help me. i know she definitely would never do anything like that. after all she was doing me a favour by helping me apply and was nice enough to ask whether i wanted it or not. she could have just gone ahead and applied without asking me first. yes, right now i am a bit envious. but then everything happens for a reason. so it's just up to me to continue trusting in God and picking up from where i left off.
things arent going right. so i cling on to what's left.
no use crying over spilt milk
since i dont like milk.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 20.4.05
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
AHHH.
i am in love.
i am in love with the pacifier and vin diesel and the family of five really good looking children. the show totally got me laughing so hard and then holding back my tears when the eldest daughter had to fight those tears because she missed her daddy who died. the whole show was just simply good. the plot was fascinating and the acting was solid. of course it certainly helped with the whole lot of eyecandies. peter, the second youngest boy, is just absolutely adorable. i want a son like him. a chinese equivalent, of course.
i want to watch the show again! the show just endeared itself to me. i just like these kinds of shows. i just want to melt now. (:
i'm going to malaysia tomorrow! for a day trip.
S H O P P I N G ! !
tralala. i've been very happy and high lately. just really high. good things have been coming along to make me smile nonstop. and i cant stop praising my God!
anyway, has anyone actually received letters from nus already? other than med school which asked for interviews and stuff.. just letters of acceptance. i wanna know!!
Godrocksmysocks (: - 19.4.05
Saturday, April 16, 2005
marathonyou have been running since i returned from china. that was in december last year. now it's already april. that's about 4 months now. and you're still running. yea, sometimes you'd stop and rest but then you'll be insistent on not moving at all. you wont even walk. you'd be stubborn and just stick yourself in the same spot for a few hours. what's up with you? you're mad. either you run nonstop for a few hours, if not you just stay still for the other hours of the day.
i think i will have to deal with you soon. probably chip off bits of you to make you more obedient. please stop giving me such a hard time.
right now, you're making it very hard for me to live a proper life. i cant do anything without you, whether you're running or not. it's just that, i wish things were simplier. get what i mean?
you have been running that marathon and you can stop now. you must be tired, because i am VERY tired. i cannot keep up with you. you cannot expect me to run after you my whole life.
someone please tell my nose to stop all that nonsense.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 16.4.05
Friday, April 15, 2005
i just got so frustrated that night. i really detest people doing certain things that get me feeling a certain way. it's so irritating when people come and talk to you only because they have a bigger motive behind it. like they may treat you as a friend but then right there and then you are a friend's friend. do you understand? as in, right there at that moment they dont treat you as a friend, but instead,
my friend's friend.
ughh. go figure yourselves. i'm too annoyed.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 15.4.05
Thursday, April 14, 2005
ROAR.do
NOT believe what that previous post advocated. it really wasnt me. it was some person who spoke like that in her blog too.
it's my middle name.go read her blog. it will talk about something like,
... fat... it's my middle name. and that person is suspiciously very familiar to me. she dons the same DNA as me. and is often referred to as
MY SISTER.i'm serious. i really didnt type that. my blogger page was up on the computer and i was on the phone. and then while i was happily talking in the kitchen, she conveniently
helped me blog. like thanks ah, jie. now i know what i mean to you and what i am in your eyes. haha and yes, i LURRRRVE you too.. aww.
sisterly LOVE. haha.
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xian ; thanks(: i'm better now. it's inevitable that i still miss lorr but then i will do so no matter what. ps hong spoke to me today and told me it's dangerous to keep all those soul ties. cant let myself get too rigidly stubborn and not want to let go. but by God's grace i will. humanity's fallibility is so obvious. and human strength is not all that is to it when we have an all-powerful God. thanksthanksthanks. anyway you're still very much welcome to join us in YM and cellgroup. just send me an sms when you're thinking of coming down ya.
evelyn and loo!! ; yes i wanna watch the wedding date! whenwhenwhen?? soon please.. haha if it's over soon then we'll all be sad and blue. loo when's your earliest day? evelyn and i are like, super free. haha yay! i always knew i have you all as company for stuff. -grin. tralala.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 14.4.05
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
i am an idiot. i just cant help it. it's my middle name.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 13.4.05
Monday, April 11, 2005
my random thoughts
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something HILARIOUS happened yesterday. like, wha...t?? HAHA it was just superrrr funny. i mean, the kind of nonsense that people pass around as gossip. this time it didnt harm any friendships, which is a good thing. because teasing and gossips usually cause friendships and relationships to sour and turn bad. (hahaha they sound like expired dairy products) but yea. nothing's turned awkward. i'm glad some other people are just matured enough to understand. and well, for those who werent as matured, its ok, because it's good to forgive and besides, i excuse them since they're pretty young. BUT i still got a laugh or two out of it. so its a blessing in disguise. (:
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joy and i finally met up after a week. and it was pretty good time spent together. loo joined us on our starbucks sundays, except now its not starbucks but the library with the freaky security guard who picks on us ALL THE TIME and walks around with a tweetybird napkin stuck on his clipboard and looks like he just came out from a horror movie, boogeyman or the likes. except he's not the victim but the one that scare the wits out of innocent people. AHHHH -freaked.
mich joined us as well, then evelyn and james visited us for a while before heading to parkway to eat. it was funnnn. i read some book then got grossed out by it. then i read another secondary school girl kind of book which was nonetheless rubbishy. i cant seem to find books that suit me in the library. i shall just stick to the bible and the christian books. safer there.
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i want to watch the pacifier and the wedding date. and i also want to go suntanning. and eat in stnicks. and go back to visit mr fahy. and go to malaysia; city square shopping!
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my mum bought me clothes from malaysia! i like! nice polo tees and a big orange shirt. my dad bought me a dryfit shirt which is big too. haha i like big tees! they're so comfortable, and BIG!
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sometimes i look at a few people younger than me and realise that i cant hold much against them even if they talk nonsense and kinda hurt people's feelings because we were all once there. not really streetsmart, insulting and dont watch what we say. i'm just glad that many of us have gotten out of the phase. just pray that they will grow up strong and be Christ-like.
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the phase word reminds me of chuili! haha we were talking about dressing in church. and that many things are much of a phase. we go through a phase where we think it's fashionable to wear mini skirts and cropped tops that reveal huge surface areas of our skin. like, discard the jeans, baggy shirts, sweaters, and dive straight for the halters, spags, mini skirts which use stringent amounts of cloth. i just hope that phase comes and goes. FAST.
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this year's youth camp is gonna be great fun! that is if the programme plans actually do come through (and true) well.
my sister is eating. again.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 11.4.05
Saturday, April 09, 2005
paaartayyyee.
the understatement: FUN. the food was good, the cooking was super fun. and the company was great. i lurrrrrrrve parties! they just get me all happy and excited. grinnnn. (:
thanks to andrew law for graciously opening his house to us and allowing us to use it so freely. and for the patience and tolerance of the monsters in the house.
thanks to mich, andrew oh, andrew law, georgie, jeff, samuel, desiree (and her mum) for the fooooood.
i'm glad jolene got a great surprise for her birthday. we got her a HUGE cake from secret recipe. it even had the words "happy 17th birthday jolene" on the cake. haha i dont even get that on my birthday. and well, from that we also discovered yongen is scared.. hurhur. but the cake looked good! and we even has some to spare, smashing cake into jolene's face. (:
the most exciting part was when we went to walk the dog and played in the playground! haha stef and i were like little children all over again, swinging on the swings. SUPER fun! the exhilaration. the kind of stuff you forget once you think you've outgrown playgrounds. i hope i never outgrow playgrounds. i love swings!
and i got new earrings! wheee. my fetish for earrings are being appeased. i remember the other time kaiping was trying to convince me to go for the chorale concert. and i said i hadnt had the cash to afford a ticket. so he said, "save up! and save on buying earrings."
HAHA. kaiping is funny.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 9.4.05
Friday, April 08, 2005
i want to loudly proclaim that IAN is an evil person. other than not cooking the much-awaited udon for me, he sends me scary stuff to freak me out at 12midnight, and throws the udon at me. then he tries to make up for it by talking about paint and sending me poop-related clips and bananas and carrots, hoping i'd crack up and laugh. but no, i will not succumb to your cunning way, oh mean one. maybe i will just forgive you because you sent me a very nice picture of your goodlooking friend. but still, ian, who threatens to make me scream, such that i will be thrown out of andrew's house tomorrow, you will not win. because i am victorious. HAH. yes, ian.i hold your lifesupport food hostage.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 8.4.05
Monday, April 04, 2005
i badly wanna play soccer now. saturday, the guys were playing soccer. but quite obviously no one took me seriously when i said i wanted to play. and well, i had core leaders' meeting. still, i had about 20min before the meeting started. but well. when guys want to play soccer, they get all serious and will reject any girl's plea to play. that's what i miss about cj. some certain special people were always willing to allow bev and i to play. oh well. it's like no one believes i actually do play soccer and like it. some people probably think it's better for me to stand at the side and be a cheerleader. -gaaarrrr.ian's nice. he cheered me up quite a bit. well at least he made the effort to try. thanks ian for being my all-in-one friend. and for sharing in the pain. but we always do believe that God will heal those pains. aight? so let's just smile and be happy. then we YOU can cook udon for ME. -nodddddds.i am determined to go for sunday service from now on. that means i cant go to work. but then God's more important. anyway sundays are for family too. so if i work, i cant be with my family during the extended family gatherings, which did make me so sad that i tried locking myself up in the room after work but i failed because my room door cant lock.so many things keep running through my head. and it makes me so exhausted. all those thoughts that totally creep me out at times. those dark thoughts that i entertain, and unknowingly allow to overpower my security in God. i need to trust God more. i am just feeling so utterly desperate and frustrated.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 4.4.05
Saturday, April 02, 2005
watched spanglish yesterday. with jon, joy, mich, andrew oh and andrew law. nice stuff. the show was good, quite satisfying. there were times when we couldnt stop laughing. but sometimes it was just so sad. i felt that special connection with bernice, the daughter of adam sandler's character. i just totally know how she feels. inferior. insecured. and that frustration that comes along with someone else invading your life, your space. oh well. it's such things that have to get me strong and for me to get up and continue walking. i cant be stuck here forever. stagnant. and then, dead.anyway, i am just super excited about youth camp! being in the camp comm is fun. we have to do the preparation and work but it's worth the efforts. we really need to rely alot on the Lord, as always. i just pray that we wont forget God in all the fun. cant leave Him out, if we're doing this for Him. i pray that i my focus will remain correct. clean, Godly fun (:i lurrve michael buble.
tell me quando quando quando
Godrocksmysocks (: - 2.4.05
