Monday, January 31, 2005
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like, seriously.
my nose is stuck.
no kidding! grr. its been so moody these days. as in, my nose. either running like crazy, or stuck. growls. my nose is having PMS. why, oh why. i cant breathe properly and cant get past the day sniffling nonstop.
anyway. i'm getting all so excited about good friday! it's coming real soon. about 53 days till the event itself! and so many people have come forth to sign up and i'm really encouraged by their enthusiasm. auditions are this wednesday for both drama and dance. i cant wait! haha it's interesting, being the behind the scenes person once again. like all years prior to the last i was performing.. but now i take on the new role of planning and braincracking and going craaaazy. but it's reallyreally fun. God grant me wisdom and super strength! (:
i worked at the coffeeshop yesterday again! by the way, for those who wanna know, it's called KHAM KEE THE ROAST SHOP. haha it's in siglap. (in the east) beside siglap centre, beside the great yawning canal. yeppers. that coffeeshop with the famous yongtaufoo and the famous kuaychap. and of course the very famous roast duck stall. which incidentally is where i'm working! it was really fun again. we kinda topped the sales again i think. haha hit past the thousand dollar intake for the day. praise God. it's really by God's grace. i am so honoured God looks down in so much favour. all glory goes to Him. because without Him, i would have died a horrible death trying to battle the incoming orders that come across like mad firing darts. i kinda forgot where some orders were supposed to go. i felt like a fool. and considering the coffeeshop's actually pretty small, i thank God for that. what a relief. it gets so busy on sundays lunch time that it's like going to war. with our ammunitions of rice, gravy, chicken, pork, duck, chilli and cutlery.
dont mess with us, the guy has a chopper.
err.. and me,
well, i just have a forgetful nature. i keep forgetting to ask where they are sitting! such that their orders get kinda messed up. i wanna do a good job of it! i wanna get past one day where there's absolutely no problems and mess ups. please help me, Lord.
people are still just as picky. oh well. human nature kicks in where human compassion on their part has to give way. and human compassion on my part has to increase by hundredfold. but i'm not complaining. it's all a matter of learning on my part. there are so many things i have to learn. it's interesting, still.
(:
i am currently not on speaking terms with my nose.
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Godrocksmysocks (: - 31.1.05
Saturday, January 29, 2005
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trala.la
i watched
shall we dance! with joy duane and justin. for old times sake i guess. haha but the show was superbbbb. after watching the show i really felt like getting up on my feet to dance too! but i somehow wasnt exactly comfortable with jLo's character. not too sure why yet. maybe she was trying too hard. such that her character came across as too false, or forced. or perhaps i was detesting the slim possibility of attraction between john clark and paulina. then that would destroy the marriage of the clarks. i mean, that's what usually happens most of the time in the movie world. get attracted beyond the marriage boundaries, develop that attraction, get caught by your other half, then feel so guilty, plead for forgiveness, your other half gets all upset and wants a divorce, but in the end love conquers all and everyone but the vixen-tempter-third party lives happily ever after.
ah. the attack of the cliche.
the world is so full of vice. that makes me sad. so frustrating, so annoying. there's vice everywhere around. something hard to avoid. like a filth, an epidemic.
im in love.
with michael buble
and frank sinatra
and kennyG.
-melts.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 29.1.05
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
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just stuff
work rocks. second time at the same place. i only work there on sundays. and it's really fulfilling! haha i love my workplace. its exciting and fun.
i work in a coffeeshop.
hhaha ok before you go ahead and judge, let me clarify. i work in one of the stalls. a roast duck stall that is veryveryvery famous. we sell duck rice, chicken rice, roast pork rice, char siew rice. and all i have to do is to take orders and collect money. then sometimes scoop rice and pour gravy. then the chopper guy will chop the meat and if there's no one to help serve, i gotta serve the food too.
this job rocks. really! dont look down on me just because i work in a low-class place that is hot, tiring and totally unglam. for one, glamour aint my thing. and two, i love it there.
think about it, when will you ever get the chance to work in a coffeeshop? most people dont. either waitressing or salegirls.. that's all that comes close. but this is full-blown coffeeshop. with the shouting of drink orders, tv showing cheesy chinese shows, floors that get dirty over the day, ah peks smoking and drinking beer and the likes.
now i get into the opposite party's shoes, i detest pesky customers who are so picky with their food. ok, health conscious. but now i know what it's like being an irritant - less oil please, dont want the fatty meat, less rice please, warm up my food more, i want more chilli, i dont want skin, i want chicken breast meat.. i detest myself for making life so hard for others when i am the customer and i order the food instead. but what to do, customer is king. we on the giving end, more often than not, gets bullied (inverted commas). not that i am complaining about my job. just that i get so frenzied when too many orders come in and all of the different customers have different preferences. it's like war.
but that's the beauty of it. God made us all different. and that is just so amazing.
so until i start school again, i will seize my sundays and really enjoy myself. tiding through the slippery floors that dont do my nonfriction shoes any good, the impending heat, the exhaustion, the stinging pain in my knees when i stand for so long, the sleepiness in the hot afternoons at about 3pm, the leering of old men..
i will enjoy myself. i already do. i love seeing singapore in a different light. and i cant wait to go back to ask more of, hi what would you like to eat? (in chinese of course)
Godrocksmysocks (: - 25.1.05
Sunday, January 23, 2005
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moondance.
Well, it's a marvelous night for a moondance
With the stars up above in your eyes
A fantabulous night to make romance
'Neath the cover of October skies
And all the leaves on the trees are falling
To the sound of the breezes that blow
And I'm trying to please to the calling
Of your heart-strings that play soft and low
And all the night's magic seems to whisper and hush
And all the soft moonlight seems to shine in your blush
Can I just have one a' more moondance with you, my love
Can I just make some more romance with a-you, my love
Well I wanna make love to you tonight
I can't wait till the morning has come
And I know now the time is just right
And straight into my arms you will run
And when you come my heart will be waiting
To make sure you're never alone
There and then all my dreams will come true, dear
There and then I will make you my own
And everytime I touch you, you just tremble inside
And I know how much you want me that you can't hide
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i am married.
to mr buble.
ahhh. heartmelt.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 23.1.05
Thursday, January 20, 2005
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say you're proud of me!
haha i went exercising. in a way.. i was rollerblading. but because i went to distribute flyers. but it's still the same as exercising!
but now i ankles and knee hurts. bahhh.
haha i'm not working this week. only this coming sunday. i've got leader's retreat from today till saturday. then goodfriday committee first meeting on saturday! mmm so busybusy. though i dont have much to be busy about. so strange.
so, un, does this answer your question? haha (:
Godrocksmysocks (: - 20.1.05
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
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my life so far
i've been alias-ing for the past week. finished season one. into the sixth or seventh episode of season two. i'm going nuts. i keep watching and and i get headache from being cooped up in the room for so long, staring at the tv screen. it's total madness. rahhh.
but alias is too exciting.
and there's eyecandy in the show!
work was alright. started on friday. then again on sunday. at two different places but both under the same boss. it's interesting, alright. i had my share of fun, pain, suffering. let's just say, i'm only going back to one of the two places i worked at. hahah. oh well.
went to life bookshop today. i totally absorbed myself in that peaceful environment, singing along to the songs played over the radio. i was just looking at all those books and i was wishing i had the time and money to purchase those books and read them. what a pity i may never get to read half of those books there.
anyway, my knee's giving me so much problems. seriously, i have no idea what's wrong. there's a dent at my kneecap! it's so scary. there's a bruise there right at the dent area. and that blueblack has been there since the soccer game in china. that was like, one month ago? growl. then now it hurts when i bend it, like when i squat, kneel.. and it also hurts when i climb up and down stairs. haiii. i'm getting old. i'm an old woman. i should start eating porridge so i wont hurt my teeth.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 18.1.05
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
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we're going to china again! back to
YANLING.
mid april - mid may
we can go either
one month or
two weeks.
as long as we all return together in mid may.
it will cost about
$1300 if you go for two weeks
so if you are interested to go, please get back to me!
ASAP.
email:
esther_tan_ye@hotmail.com
if i dont hear from you by next week,
i'm sorry.
/:
Godrocksmysocks (: - 11.1.05
Saturday, January 08, 2005
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when you dont appreciate.
grr.
leaves me tearing my hair out in despair. and biting my nails, hoping to hide my disappointment.
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roarr. i want to play soccer again. i want to return to cj and play soccer at the grandstand area again. i want to feel the adrenaline. i want to play with them in china again. i want to act bimbotic on the field again after scoring a goal.
ok, that's because i'm watching the singapore indonesia first leg of the finals for the tigercup. so far its 62minutes into the game and its 2-0 with the advantage to singapore. i'm nonetheless amazed. did anyone catch the singapore myanmar second leg match? whoa. by far the most drama match i've ever seen. four myanmar players sent off the field. fights which involve middle fingers and flying water bottles, and pummelled you-know-wheres. creative game, i'm sure.
like, totally.
singapore scored again but it was an offside. GROWL. not too pleasing, i'd say.
oh! SINGAPORE SCORED!!! 3-0 now! this is wholly amazing. thanks mr abu. but no thanks to myself who had to sneeze just when they scored. i didnt get to see them score! -whineyywhinewhine.
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tell me, who ever likes to feel insecured? growl. its like a beast that consumes and engulfs and wages war against a battered soul. a rampant savage.
*bishbash*
*chomp.growl*
-burp*
someone save me. prettyprettyplease.
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oh dear. the indonesia supporters are leaving the stadium even before the match is over. i hope this doesnt result in some riot or interrelational problems for governments and residents and whatnots. tigercup is only tigercup.
tralala.
go singapore, go.
yeahhbaby. yeahbabyy. yeahhbaby.
(:
Godrocksmysocks (: - 8.1.05
Friday, January 07, 2005
one of those quizes.
alrightt. i was bored!
questionaire; reflections; something 2004-ish.
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? my first mission trip!
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for this year? i think i did. i remember one of my new year resolutions was never to skip any class at all the whole year round and i really didnt skip! mmm yea im making more for this year
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? i dont think so. but angie did get pregnant!
4. Did anyone close to you die? err. yea. lorr did.
5. What countries did you visit? china! malaysia..
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? more time for my spiritual growth! yeaaa. (:
7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 29 sept, the day lorr passed away. and 5-18dec, YEP - the best time in my life! 16-19june, kayaking XP. 24nov, last day of As!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? serving the Lord and helping save two for the Lord!! and playing soccer again. hehh.
9. What was your biggest failure? probably my econs essay exam. hhaha
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? err. yea cracked my knee. eczema. and a few abrasions from falling down during soccer!
11. What was the best thing you bought? this top that i am in love with now. hahah!
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? my best friend, JC. always the bestest.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? sometimes mine. mostly mine.
14. Where did most of your money go? missions!
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? the trip to china! and ending As!
16. What song will always remind you of 2004? there are a few songs though - the way you look tonight, gui ji, friends are friends forever.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier? yes! b) thinner or fatter? fatter! last year this time, i lost 3kg! c) richer or poorer? poorer. haha
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? give more time to God. i realised i was being quite selfish for dropping so many commitments because it was my a levels year. grr.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? living in the shadows and being insecured.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? in 2005? missions and church christmas cluster events!
21. Did you fall in love in 2004? yea i guess. but i also fell out of love! haha then fell in love again.. and this time, this love stays.
22. How many one-night stands? zero! yuckgross.
23. What was your favorite TV program? i dont watch tv. haha oh well.
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? nopes.
25. What was the best book you read? the bible. and generation esther.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery? that i actually do love singing.
27. What did you want and get? new clothes! i was initially wearing the same stuff all the time. because i dont really buy clothings. but i did buy fresh new stuff to mix and match. God surely provides! though i didnt ask for it. -grinn.
28. What did you want and not get? an mp3.
29. What was your favorite film of last year? bride and prejudice! whoohoo i also want to dance now!
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i was 18. and we celebrated it at sentosa. justin organised everything. and dora thought it was a surprise for me. but i knew about everyting from the beginning.. sorry dear. but i was really very happy and all of them made a huge difference on my birthday. plus, i played soccer!
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? if i had stayed in yanling for a longer period of time
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? hahahaha. err factory worker? hahahahaha. cjc uniform like, almost everyday. so yea.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? michael buble. awww. melts.
34. What political issue stirred you the most? probably the afghan war and stupid american soldiers. plus the brutality. especially the slow cutting of the head off one. grrrr.
35. Who did you miss? lorr.
36. Who was the best new person you met? JOY!
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004. one more for the Lord.
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. unforgettable, that's what you are.......
tralala
Godrocksmysocks (: - 7.1.05
Thursday, January 06, 2005
this is my life so far this year.
i've been bumming around. going out. lazing about. not doing anything productive. and its getting sickening.
i'm starting work next friday. means i have one week to kill.
i could:
- finish writing all the letters i owe my chinese friends
- finish writing appreciation letters to my singapore friends (i'm sorry i've disclosed)
- write prose/ articles
- doodle some sporadic art stuff
- check up on university courses
- volunteer
- clean up the house (who am i kidding)
- pack my academic stuff of the last two years
- reconsider the previous two.
so there. my beautiful plan for the week ahead all laid out nice and sweet. all it takes now is to really accomplish it. mmm. mobilising period; commences.
ha. as if.
i called pot luck up today. and its confirmed; i begin work next friday. designation: waitress. yes you read right. *ahem* an hour. cant be nehneh about the pay since this opportunity is presented to me. its a great blessing already. ah the experience, the environment, the excitement; priceless.
gee.
and ive calculated. i want to go to china for missions. for a month, in about april or may. it will probably cost $1*00 (give and take $200) . since its one month, and this time there aint no nice SIF to subsidise a whole 60% or anything like that. so there. high price to pay. but insignificant as compared to the fulfilment i'll get out of it. -beeeeg grinn.
ok.
so i work four hours in one shift. and if i work a total of nine shifts in one week, i get to pocket ... in one week. and considering from now till then, i work about 12 weeks, i get to bring home ... subtracting the worst case scenario - $1*00, i get to keep ... for personal use. means food, clothes, misc stuff. and also considering i wont be buying any clothes if at all possible, i get to spend a whole lot more on food and misc stuff (like onceinabluemoon movies, birthday presents, art stuff, stationery..) and then, that's about ... per week.
plus.
i think i may do some sideline fundraising stuff. for one, i'm gonna make earrings! as in, with like beads and wire and stufffff. hoping to make something out of it. and i dont know what else.
i sound like a bad case of a financial advisor to myself. but,
i think i may just survive pretty well.
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you know, we shouldnt be counting our earthly possession so much. we shouldnt be storing up treasure on earth. we shouldnt be focusing on obtaining more earthly credits as compared to heavenly treasures. and so applying this, i shouldnt be harping on trying to earn more money all the time.
but.
i am trying to earn this money to go on missions.
hmmm.
alright. as long as i dont become some miser. or cause problems for others because i'm too involved in earning more money.
Lord, i need Your grace.
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oh yea.
angpow money.
not counted in yet.
grrreatttt.
told you i'd be just fine.
because God is my Jehovah Jireh.
God rocks my socks!
-out.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 6.1.05
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
beeeeg grinn.
i just received two letters from china! from zhou wei and yan min. my soccer friends from the xiang classes! they're so ultra sweet. and considering it aint really that cheap for them to post letters from china to singapore. woah. im really touched. but zhou wei's handwriting is so messy, i spend half the time guessing the words. but he was saying it was interesting that girls play soccer. since well, it is unusual i guess. and yan min was writing about how fortunate we are to live in singapore etc and said he was going to university soon but its not easy at all. mmm. reminds me of my blessings once again. and gets me all disgusted by how unappreciative we are. haiiiiiii. sadd. i mean, im not exactly considered extremely very well to do in singapore. yet compared to them, im ultra luxurious. i just find it so unfair that i get such a good life, sheltered and fed and educated and all.. yet my friends have to endure relative poverty and. just so unfair.
they have certainly made a huge impact on my life. i value them so much, probably more than they think we do.
class 222 - dengting, yejun(yesha), xuhui(guodiao), xiaonai, zhigang(datie), xianguo, shaoping (who drew pictures for me), huoting (the ann-look-a-like), mr zhang (because i dont know how to read the second character of his name), the cute 15 year old girl, the other three girls in my group
class 218 - dengshuai(allister), xuliang(leon-rubbish), guoliang(gerald), linghuan(owen), yingqian, yabo(badegg), quemingde, wudi(woody), reubenchong-look-a-like
class 214 - huojing and pe class friends (including the girl with the super pro chinese at opening ceremony in school and the jingqin-look-a-like)
class 215 - houjie and friends
class 224
class 228
class 227 - liyun(daryl), bernard, tim, joshua and friends.
daizhiqiang (who gave me his classphoto)
limin (mr wushu shuaige at opening night concert)
liubo (the guy who talked to me on the first day before the concert and almost scared me away by his overenthusiasm later on)
mr handsome (who asked evelyn to sign on his jersey which made jo so jealous)
hellen and lijiali
yanmin and zhouwei (the soccerboots and soccersocks guy)
the girls who danced and sang at opening night concert
meimao!! (who ate lunch with us!)
grace (who bought firecrackers for us to play!)
jasmine (grace's friend)
yejing and yanghui (who accepted Christ!)
luojianyang
xiaobudian and xiaolajiao (the aizhu-look-a-like)
tony and leo
luoyi, junli, zhangxi, mengjing (from xiang 15)
mr 21 (because he guessed that i was 21 yrs old..)
xiaoyan and denghong (from xiang 13)
growl-
Godrocksmysocks (: - 4.1.05
