Saturday, February 28, 2004
Tears:
haha yes tears taste weird.
dont try it, it sucks.
ryl:
thanks.
:)
the letter n on my keyboard is not working
i just ctrl+v-ing away whenever a letter n comes up
thats why you can see the very necessary letter n.
now i know how crucial the letter n is.
daddy please mend the keyboard soon!
the right key is not working either.
-poutt.
-
oh yea.
congrats to all those 2003 sec4s who just got back their results!
for those disappointed, its not the end of the world!
i survived, so can you.
-
haii who am i kidding..
stress sucks.
big time.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 28.2.04
Friday, February 27, 2004
its been a long time since ive cried.
and no kidding, tears taste gross.
haii.
this sucks.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 27.2.04
Monday, February 23, 2004
i have loved thee
nothing more
than just the most
when i finally do get to meet You
i wanna give You a beeeeeeeeg hug!
(:
Godrocksmysocks (: - 23.2.04
Saturday, February 21, 2004
anyway, what on earth is this whole issue about being attached?
is being attached all there is to the meaning of life on this planet earth?
is humanity really becoming that dense?
tell me one thing:
why is it that most people view singles differently?
especially at this age.
and more so to those singles who have been single their whole life till now.
tell me!
Godrocksmysocks (: - 21.2.04
i think people who get attached to look cool are
ultimate losers in life.
seriously.
everyone, agreed?
these people abuse the concept of relationships
and distort the beautiful image relationships once bore.
people go into relationships because they love the other person.
not to look cool!
whats the use of looking cool anyway?
and who in the first place determines what is defined as
cool or
uncool?
who draws the line between being
in and
not in?
and who says that to be attached = being cool?
oh please.
seriously, i think people who think being attached can get them into the in-crowd
or boost their status,
or allow them to gain popularity and have everyone know who they are,
are kinda pathetic.
you can do so many other things to get what you want.
and please,
please, pretty please,
i would not like for you to come on my blog and judge why i am not attached.
dont criticise what you dont understand.
the one thing i detest a whole lot,
is being misunderstood.
why am i not attached?
simply because
I DONT WANT TO.
is it that hard to accept?
is it that hard, that you have to come here
(under a profanity name, that is)
and
tell me what i am like and impose upon me how i ought to understand myself?
puh-leeze.
for crying out loud, i think everyone knows that i know myself much better than you know me.
many people see me as different because i just dont go with the norm
i have never been attached, nor am i about to get attached.
nor do i see myself attached any time soon.
so there.
-
dont stereotype me.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 21.2.04
responses
...:
well, please dont generalise.
i dont believe i am that sort of girl.
that is, i dont think i am scared of relationships for that reason.
but in the first place, im not even
scared of relationships.
so yea.
ermm sorry if this sounds harsh though..
ryl:
haha what you say makes sense.
khairi once said that he observed that im afraid of commitments.
but i dont know if thats true!
but well, i think the reason why im not in a relationship isnt because im afraid of commitments either.
its just me i guess.
im.. different? (aka weird and strange)
hahahah
evelyn:
hahah the zong se qing you thing is it?
i guessed that you would associate with that.
hahah but take heart that God looks upon us as servants for him, foremost!
not as attached couples or whatever.
Jesus:
number one: this is blaspheme.
number two: err who are you?
number three: who ever am i gonna get attached to..?
..doh
flea:
hello philene!!!!
ni hao ma?
haha how did you manage to venture your way here..!!
Godrocksmysocks (: - 21.2.04
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
i wish
have you ever wished for something to happen,
and it really does happen?
i have.
and it sucked.
i didnt want it to happen
i never imagined it would really happen
but it did.
so please, remember this:
before you wish for something to happen,
think: WWJD.
what would Jesus do.
yupp then life wouldnt have funny turnouts and weird occurences.
haii.
im so tired.
drained physically, mentally, emotionally.
its just those times when everything crashes over and you break down kind of thing.
i dont know how i am coping.
studies
syf
goodfriday performance
cip
plus a whole load of other crap.
minor plus minor plus minor equals to major.
and i dont want
it to bug me, but
it does.
when i talk about bgr stuff bugging me,
dont take it as i-like-a-guy-and-i-am-dying-because-he-wont-notice-me-back
because that is total bull.
im just very bugged because of this whole concept.
people dont understand,
why im not attached, why i dont like anyone, why i am anti-relationship
damnit i just am.
im not saying i will be forever, although thats what i always say.
because i never know what the future holds.
but yea.
its like,
she get attached
and i get left in the cold
she once was my close friend
but now i am so insignificant.
zhong se qing you.
get what i mean?
and plus, being flattered and happy
but then again, being bugged and bothered.
i really dont know what to do.
so stop asking me.
i want to accept your apology
but when i run away,
its just me.
my human nature.
the way i am.
its weird, i know.
accept it.
do i even make sense..?
Godrocksmysocks (: - 18.2.04
Sunday, February 15, 2004
the best valentines day ive ever had so far
yupp!
really.
it was great fun.
i mean, spending it with the one i love the most..
how much more fun could i expect?
haha alright.
for those who know i dont date (yes i dont)
you must be wondering what on earth im talking about.
haha well i spent it with God!
He is the one i love the most!
ha what were you thinking..
but it was definitely made better because i spent it with two other special people in my life!
jingmin and joy!
double-J..
hahha they are so much like myself, that why i feel so comfortable with them
(no, i am not les!!!!)
the three of us are
single and unavailable.
that sounds so nice.
haha but its true.
i never thought i would find anyone out there so much like me
and God blessed me with two friends like that in fact!
had a long and nice conversation with them on the bus to dhoby ghaut.
well duh, because the bus ride was ultra long.
i hope no one thought we were like, lonely and sad because we are single and thats why we went out together.
hahah that is total bovine scatology.
err it simply means bull sh*t.
i am avoiding usage of that last word in the previous sentence you see..
no foolish words and coarse joking allowed.
thats what the Bible said.
yupp!
which reminds me..
on thursday i berated so many people for using the f-word in front of me.
like, it was so strange..
because on thursday it just seemed like there were extra much usage of the f-word in front of me as compared to other days..
haha im sorry if i scolded you, if you were one of those who did use vulgarities in front of me.
it was quite funny that time, when i was talking to nigel darryl and ronald.
then they said
f-you to each other..
and i told them not to be so vulgar.
after a while, ronald accidentally said the f-word
and he immediately looked at me and apologised.
hahahahahahaha
Godrocksmysocks (: - 15.2.04
its over, finally
yupp the ntu-jc challenge is finally over
and am i glad man.
but well, a little disappointed.
if not, very.
haii cjc didnt win any award at all!
but we didnt win any, along with 14 other jc/ci.
ha! so we are not that bad.
and whats more,
RJC didnt win anything at all either!
like,
the RJC..
hahahah ok im evil.
but they have a stigma against us, well, vice versa.
so there.
oh well it was disappointing because we really thought we had hope to win the best presentation award.
everyone from other jc/ci were so impressed!
as in, in awe.
yet we didnt even get nominated to win.
what crap.
the judges are stupid lah.
they probably didnt understand our wholly new concept of presentation.
because we did it in a newscaster kind of format.
where it was a talk show kind of thing.
and we had B-E-A-U-TIFUL visual effects!
but brother paul was saying that the judges are science people so artyfarty stuff just doesnt register as anything in their scientific heads.
like, wth.
why cant they just give recognition where its due.
haii.
but boy im glad its over.
-
went to ccab to meet joy to go to jingmins house.
it was quite funny, because there was no one at jingmins house but for her new maid.
and her new maid knew neither one of us.
but she still let us in
so dangerous, come to think of it.
and jingmin didnt even call to tell her maid we were going to her house
hahaha
we went to trinity christian centre for their youth church service.
we were late, duh..
it was a talk on
true love waits
quite nice.
we didnt really find it that insightful
but it was enlightening.
as in, the prayer and altar call at the end of it all.
hmm met rongrong and shihui there!
interesting.
hmm yeppers peppers.
took bus to dhoby ghaut later.
jingmin and joy were gonna watch movie
but i had to go home cus my dad just told me not to stay out so long.
hahhaha
yupp the bus ride was the longest ever for such a short route.
why?
because of a terrible traffic jam, because of valentines day!
got home real late
and my parents were not really that angry also.
my brother is so sweet!
he went on geog field trip with his school yesterday
and when i came home, he said he bought something for me!
he bought a packet of twisties for me.
hahah and its the limited edition one!
the kind which can make your tongue change colour after eating.
hahahha so sweet right!!!
thanks jon!
Godrocksmysocks (: - 15.2.04
Friday, February 13, 2004
ive been in a funny mood these days.
or should i say, in funny mood
s.
haii.
weird moodswings.
and i have no idea why on earth i am behaving like that.
like one moment i can be all high and hyper
then again i can get all cranky and grumpy and very much on the edge.
but i must say the time period of being high and hyper far outweights the time period being cranky lah.
which is good if not everyone will get really pissed off as well.
maybe its because ive been living with my emotions taking the lead.
and that is damn bad.
i ought to lead with my head and not my heart.
but how..?
someone tell me how!!!
i think if everyone were to contribute just one practical way, i will be able to live my life normally once again.
hahaha is there any kind soul out there?
i really wanna get rid of my cranky mood.
its fouling up my days.
hmm
oh yea,
no its
not that time of the month.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 13.2.04
alright-y fight-y.
i
did get to experience vday in a co-ed school for once.
i could get early excuse from school
and that meant like, right after assembly.
but i am such a good girl.
haha i stayed in school for fahys lesson.
glad i did though
because i would have been BBQ-ed so badly for missing his tutorials.
hmm and yea pathetic excuse for staying behind to see for myself what vday is like in a co-ed school
hahah but its not say very spectacular or anything also.
just about the same as stnicks.
except in stnicks we saw much more flowers, more chocolates, more teddybears, more balloons.
yupp.
right now i just feel like sleeeeeeeeeping.
fatigue is taking hold of my life right this moment.
bahhh.
not fun at all.
my eyes are closing, slowly, slowly.
and my feet are killing me as well!
no kidding man.
four big and watery blisters on both feet combined.
on my last toes. and at the back of my ankles.
dreaded court shoes i had to wear today
for the ntu-jc challenge thing.
and i have to wear them tomorrow as well!
like, ughhhhhh.
ultimate torture.
i found no reason to buy new court shoes
just found some black heels in the cupboard that probably belongs to my mum.
small and painful and very very tight.
ahhhh the whole time i wore it i just wanted to soak my feet in a tub of water.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 13.2.04
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
miracles
i believe in miracles.
a miracle is from God
Gods love for me is a miracle.
how could He love such sinners like us?
we clearly dont deserve any of His TLC.
yet He gave us more than that.
praise God.
He rocks!
so many things have been happening.
i dont know whether to complain or to rejoice.
lets just put it as - its been eventful.
but i guess i do get a little happy, rather happy
or even very happy.
praise God, praise God.
its all His glory.
had our second SYF drama rehearsal today.
alemay and sharon, our trainers, are really cool
haha that makes me sound like im trying to act cool.
err but they are really interesting people.
hmm yupp
anyway, i want to say,
thank you Jesus!
i was appointed student director (or assistant director) for the syf drama play.
(alemay is the director, duh)
yupp and im very happy!
i didnt want to act this year.
i just didnt feel like.
somethings happening within me
God is working in me!
He seems to be telling me to take a step back from the frontline
and do something of backstage quality.
yeaaa!
and being appointed AD by alemay has answered this call to do something different from acting only.
of course i love acting.
acting is like, my life.
but being a assistant director is part of drama
and by being the AD, i will learn so much more about drama tricks of the trade.
so i am reallyreallyreallyreallyreally happy.
to God be the glory, forever and ever amen.
theres a poetry competition this friday.
i dont know if i can make it also
because i have to be at ntu for a competition finale.
bahhh!
the ntu-jc challenge is gonna make me miss vday in cj again!
i missed it last year as well because neo and i went to send sara off to aust.
and this year i wont get to experience vday in cj too!
bahh.
i wanna know how it feels to commemorate vday in a co-ed school
never had the experience (duh)
boo.
i just wanna get the feel, you see.
not as if i will get anything also.
hmm yeppers peppers.
cj is getting to the vday mood already.
like, its spreading and quite infectious.
hahah we had song dedications and brownies-muffins-balloons-roses selling today.
set up by 2T35.
im so proud of them
all money collected will be donated to needy students in cjc.
they are so kind and nice.
i wanna do something like that as well!
maybe i should set up a booth to get people to donate to some special childrens school.
maybe the special children.
they need our love and care.
speaking of which,
the whole drama society went to chao yang special school today!
for CIP.
the children are really adorable.
i bought sweets for them this morning.
and seeing the joy in their eyes when they received the sweets just lighted up my day.
seeing them happy made me happy as well
its these simplicity of their attitudes that makes me muse in sad irony and pity at my own life.
who is really the disabled ones here?
i dont think its them, seriously.
the problem lies with each and every one of us not admitted into those special schools.
you, and me.
we clamour after materialistic goods all the time
and we are never never satisfied
much wants more
that stinks.
just look at the children, they are so happy although its only a simple twinkle sweet which is worth like, $0.05.
i dont understand why people would want better handphones and stuff.
i mean, its a handphone after all.
the main purpose when the hp was first invented, was simply to aid in communication without having to use the house telephones or public phones.
all for the sake of convenience.
and now people want hps with more memory space, cameras, double simcard switch stuff, radios etc.
humanity is warped.
and of course me inclusive.
that is the sad irony of it all
i vent so much, yet im still a victim.
yes, because i want a digital camera.
arent i glorifying a crime i so strongly put down a minute ago..?
that is what stinks:
you cant escape.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 11.2.04
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
firstly,
todays my daddys birthday too.
but he doesnt come here.
anyway, happy birthday to my daddy as well!
secondly,
daniel left about one hour plus ago.
as in, left singapore.
hes so blessed to be able to study overseas.
(though going to trinity may have one small setback)
hahahaha poor guy.
its as though youre being stalked..
hmm have never been close to daniel
although ive known him for at the most ten years now?
and our dads are golf kakis. hahah.
only after he came to cj, did we actually talk more.
but oh wells.
after i called him to say bye,
i did feel a slight tinge of sadness.
people are just coming and going
and leaving so soon.
i hate all kinds of separations, period.
no matter who it is.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 10.2.04
what was that supposed to mean?
the
black addidas collar thing.
err
youre probably not the kevin you intended to be
but dont be so evil, ya?
its not very nice.
:)
yupp
Godrocksmysocks (: - 10.2.04
neo:
youre still alive!
hhahha its been so long since i last contacted you.
oh btw your
firstthreemonths eyecandy gained over ten kg!
hes like, chubby now..?
haha
joe:
err dont be lame can?
wahh im so embarrassed already.
tomorrows theres song dedications after school.
dont forget to dedicate to your I, M, C.. err dontknow who else.
sudk:
haha ignore joe.
hmm yupp anyway thanks for the nice encouragements.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 10.2.04
Friday, February 06, 2004
just got home
went out with 1T33.
the long awaited class cum OG outing.
i looked like a repeat student among them man.
haha well not all of them could go
only about 12 of us, including aaron and myself.
we went to seoul garden at taka
my goodness!
what a flop of my eating-healthy plan
bahh.
but it was fun.
and i found out loaddddsss of gossips.
hahaha very interesting.
hmm saw daphne and some 2T23 people at seoul garden too.
they started a fire!!
as in, really.. a fire!!!!!
oh man.
daphne was quite disappointed
because she wanted to see them use the fire extinguisher
but they used water to put out the fire.
in the end they had to change table.
hahaha i think it was melvins fault.
pity i didnt get to see!
boo.
went home with ron
because we take the same bus.
hes like full of crap
haha he and denyse ahh....
hehhh.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 6.2.04
Thursday, February 05, 2004
funny morning
something very very very funny happened today!
every morning i take bus 966 to school
and there are always many other cj people on the bus as well.
anyway, the bus route is such that it travels on the highway,
then exits at upper thomson to go towards cjc.
well the bus was crusing along the highway,
until i realised that the surroundings looked rather weird.
and guess what,
the bus driver didnt exit the highway!!
hahahahahhahaha
so super funny.
there was a bus stop that the bus driver missed
because the bus was on the highway,
and there was a barrier and a road between the bus stop and the bus.
hahahha
this lady couldnt get off the bus.
anyway, the bus was supposed to exit then turn left to cjc
and obviously it couldnt turn left to cjc.
so in the end the bus driver continued driving along the highway,
and finally there was this juncture where the normal bus-route road joined back to the highway..
and the bus driver just stopped the bus there.
so all the cjc students had to walkkkkkkkkkk alllllllll the wayyyyyy back to school.
hahahahaah what an experience.
i was laughing to myself on the bus when i realised the uncles mistake
but i wasnt laughing at him!
i was laughing at the situation.
kinda like a once in a lifetime kind of experience
actually ive always thought about what it would be like to experience something like that.
as in, the bus driver travelling the wrong route..
and i finally got to experience it.
cool cool.
hmm the bus driver kept apologising
i think it was his first time travelling along this route.
haha its ok uncle!
i enjoyed my morning walk.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 5.2.04
im just not too pleased
yes i got to talk to him today.
but still,
i think the misery supercedes the bliss.
haii
whatever.
i think im going crazy in my own abyss of desolate fears.
my worst fears confirmed.
ughh
its bad enough that youre not staying.
but youre actually going.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 5.2.04
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
got to see the syf drama script for the first time today
ive got lots to say but i shant say
because i wouldnt want people to read and spread the word around.
lets just keep it at:
alll-rrriiiggggghhttt..
if you get my drift.
hmm today i was quite a happy person
but then again, i dontknow.
happy twice in the day.
but later a little too miserable for my liking.
what am i talking about?
ughh
dont walk away
Godrocksmysocks (: - 4.2.04
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
intricate beauty
falls like the petals
of a withered rose
+dreams last for so long
even after youre gone.
hmm had an amazing dream two nights ago.
well simply because you were in it.
just like what i say all the time,
whimiscal dreams
Godrocksmysocks (: - 3.2.04
