Wednesday, December 31, 2003
alright.
since its the last day of 2003
i shall do some reflections
but i doubt anyone really cares
after all people dont even visit this blog anymore.
hahah i seem to be writing just to satisfy myself.
bahhh.
its seriously been so fast.
this year past faster than expected
i guess the changes this year does contribute.
days of my life:
THE GOOD:
-- meeting my first three months classmates. 1T04!! and friends outside of class. ponning. and running away from school. that was life in the first three months. still remember that one day when we zao-ed school in the morning, and went to BK at cine to eat breakfast. haha we were sitting outside BK even before they opened the doors. stayed there for super long. and played idiot. and i am so proud to say that i emerged champion!!!!! hahaha after not talking for almost half an hour, that is a very big acheivement for esther tan.
-- our first ever most successful sec4D class gatherings after graduation. at yanrongs house. it was really really really fun. although we barely graduated only, we still missed each other so much. you guys really rock. (wahh so cliche) you all are a very different bunch of people ive met. and i am glad we all got posted to sec3D and sec4D. easily the laziest class ever in SNGS 2001 and 2002. but who is complaining? haha i appreciate you all very much.
-- O level results? ermm getting 12 may be considered good. but its still not good enough. you cant really get anywhere. its a weird number. like 13, 14 and maybe even 15. well i could say it is a great acheivement, considering the fact that i really wanted to give up, quit school and go laselle or nafa, a few weeks before the exams. talk about a plunge of morale. but God still pulled me through. yeaa!
-- abels birthday party. ermm wait. i think this one was ok only i guess. i mean, among the AC guys and MG girls, the few of us were like ostrasized outcasts. like, totally. haha but it was not too bad. at least i got to know shihui.
-- stay over at sentosa with neo kang wen xiu sab szuyu yr and chun. sijori hotel. where i learnt to play bridge. im glad i learnt! staying up for so long with neo kang and wen. and trying to catch the sunrise but stupidly, because the sun does not rise from the south.
-- 1T04 class gathering at hils house! great great fun. what more can i say. i enjoyed myself very much. although something happened. but i doubt anyone remembers. and even when i do remember now, i dont care. so yea.
-- school posting results i guess. initally got posted to SAJC. not exactly my dream JC, neither any of my choices when i was still in secondary school. i never thought about going there at all. but i guess it was a good day.
-- 25th March 2003. noticed my eyecandy for the first time. haha chaojiwudi ke ai! but i will probably never see him ever again. unless i go to school with xiu. hahah oh well. it was good while it lasted right.
-- transfering back to CJC. funny decisions. yea people even say im stupid to go back to CJC with 12 points and when i got posted to SAJC. but still, it was my choice. and besides, its me studying. and not them in my place. of course i did get affected after the transfer. and people telling me im stupid to do so certainly didnt help. i never wanted to talk about it. i still remember my mum telling me, the day you dont get affected by people asking why you transfer back to CJC, is the day youve grown up. and i have grown up! tell me im stupid, and i will just say you dont know me well.
-- my present class now!!!!!! 1T06! i am so glad im in this class with the combi that im offering. haha if you get my drift. never mind. well my class is fun-loving and always late for lectures. yea sure we are united! united in going for lectures late. oh well what to do. hhaha im so glad most of us are rising up to 2T06 together. its damn sad that some of you wont be with us anymore. i mean, the world is a cruel place. just pray that we wont dwindle down to mere acquaintances.
-- 14th may 2003!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-- holiday in malaysia during the june hols. where i got my tan. haha which obviously faded already. where i dyed my hair as well. which obviously went as well. where i relaxed so much. which i certainly miss so much.
-- 2nd july! hahaha duhh of course. this was probably one of the bestest birthdays ive ever had. other than the time in sec2 when my friends surprised me with a self-baked cake. awww sweeties. well although i had my midyear exams (literature paper) on that day, it sure didnt spoil my mood. people were being so sweet. singing songs (omar!!) and wishing me happy birthday in the exam room itself, just before the paper began. and my class belting out a touching rendition of happy birthday right after the paper outside the classroom. you all really made my day. i felt so special that day. thanks so much. and xiu also!! who came all the way down to look for me at scotts foodcourt to pass me a birthday cake. oreo cheesecake! my favourite too! thanks everyone. haha of course when i happen to do best in my lit paper among all the papers, i did feel even better.
-- 3rd july 2003. the day i felt so special all over again. the class lunch at canadian pizza together after our exams to celebrate the end of midyears. and my surprise birthday cake from starbucks! oh dear if i continue on i will start sounding mushy and cliche and this will get a tad little insincere. haha but you get what i mean ya. i really appreciate it.
-- 2nd oct 2003. my sisters supermodel competition! she got into top ten. quite an achievement. im proud of her.
-- when the final year exams ended! duhhhh. and when i went sentosa with bev dora nim and sandie! super duper duper duper funnnnnn.
-- final year exam results. i passed, i got promoted! got C C D. quite average. but at least i do have two Cs. all thanks to God. despite not attaining what i hoped for, i guess God gave me what i deserved.
-- NTU-JC challenge! the residential stay in NTU. a whole new experience that i will never forget. interesting people i met. and realising that when bullfrogs start singing their night songs, you just cant sleep.
-- when i was told i am to be in charge of a dance and drama ministry in church next year onwards! drama and dance - its my life. and my way of speaking to God. and now im very very sure what God wants me to do in life and as a career. im not going after the glitz and glamour. im going for the glory of God!
-- holiday in bangkok and chiangmai!! shoppers paradise babehh. truly truly. nothing can compare. hahah girls and shopping just go hand in hand.
-- christmas concert! a gift for the giver. back to doing what i love the most - performing. haha especially when its for God!! when i meet God in Heaven next time, i will give Him a big bear hug!! haha that is allowed right?
-- worship team retreat. memorable, very memorable.
-- goofing around during facil training. haha well the facil trainings werent as boring as i thought they would be. especially yesterday and today. when we played the games. and dragon-boated! hahah although suffering under the imature-ness of some certain individuals isnt exactly what i wished for. but it did contribute to making the entire training sessions a whole lot more fun and memorable. i think im gonna get a phobia of water soon. hahah
THE BAD:
-- coming to CJC for the first time of my life. I WAS LATE. great. i hate being late. but oh well. blame it on my suaku-ness. i knew not how to get to CJC. and i didnt like orientation. i guess it was also because of the repulsiveness of CJC to me. hahah and sadly, i fell ill. vomitted and stayed in bed for two days. ahh crap.
-- probably my O level results also? ermm i guess the joy did rise when i saw that i got 12. but disappointment was fast to meander in when i realised i couldnt get into VJC to take TSD. my dreams, shattered. still, God does have a plan for me to stay in CJC. i guess 12 is good but not good enough. get what i mean? but thats alright. i do have my share of fun in CJC. and at least i know the stress in VJC would have broken me down a million times over.
-- leaving SAJC and leaving my eyecandy. hhahaha
-- holiday in malaysia during the june hols. yeaa. when i felt so inferior and down and sad and blue and just repulsive towards myself. haiiii.
-- when my sis became a model. i mean, i sound jealous i know. but i did feel inferior. she is taller, slimmer, prettier, smarter, and everything im not. haiii. but i know God loves me. and ive gotten over that inferiority already. thanks to dora!! and since im a child of God, i know He cares for me. and He created me. so who am i to feel inferior? im only insulting His creation this way. nobody is perfect. but God is fair. i may not be as smart as my sister, or as tall and slim as her, or ever be scouted to be a model. but at least i know i have my spiritual gifts of drama and dance to proclaim the glory of God with.
-- 1 july 2003. the day of my maths C 9233 paper. and the day i had baaaaaad stomach cramps for two hours during the paper. ughhhh i could die. but i guess some people will just say its an excuse im giving for doing badly. (i got 39/100) alright, i suppose you can say that. but at least i did pick myself up and get a B in my end of year maths papers. but because i had to add 20% of that midyear crap, i got C in the end. nevermind!
-- the week when i kept getting caught by brother paul for my socks and skirt. ughhh. not fun at all.
-- project work. DUH.
-- missing you
-- dying of fatigue. and skin itch. and skin allergy. and everything else bothersome.
well i cant wait for next year.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 31.12.03
these few days have been
meeting-people days
haha see right.
sunday 28th dec - met neo, hil, shuming, russel, mar and jeremy!
like after an eternity!!
not hil jeremy and neo lah
cus i meet them like alot.
hahah been so long since ive seen shuming russel and mar.
we had dinner at suntec, kenny rogers.
russel grew!
hes finally reaching my height.
hahahhaha but he certainly became cuter now.
the mar eyes are still as small.
monday 29th dec - cj drama gathering.
quite a floppy thing.
but nonetheless
oh wells.
tuesday 30th dec - bbq at mrs wees house!
(ermm mrs wee was my maths tuition teacher in secondary school)
it was like some church gathering.
because so many of us who attended tuition are from the same church
rachel, stef, jolene, esmond, dengzhi, aaron and myself.
evelyn peng couldnt go!!
hmph.
oh yea fengyi went as well.
but she had to leave early.
and i finally saw krystle!!!!!!!!!
after a year ok!
oh man oh man.
she is so girly now.
hahha almost couldnt recognise her.
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today was super duper funnnn!
and it hasnt even ended yet
we had facils training in the morning.
like, hello?
today is the 31st of december!
its a rest day!
but nonetheless
at least it was fun and enjoyable.
because it wasnt in school
we went kallang basin for
dragon-boating!!
this is a once in a lifetime kind of experience man
especially when its esthers life we are talking about.
hahahha
it was greattt fun.
me and my no-arm-strength
im not ashamed to proclaim i have no arm-strength man
after all, its useless lying also right.
hahah yea man
but it was an exciting experience!
gary told me the wrong directions
so good thing i told steph i would meet at kallang mrt station
and not try to get there on my own.
if not i would have wasted even more time getting lost
oh yea i think i became tanner!
ok very very very very very slightly only lah
after all we only spent about two hours in the sun.
but still.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 31.12.03
Monday, December 29, 2003
just got back from school
who ever goes back to school during the hols!
ughhh oh wells
went for orientation stuff for next year
all the facils for next year are quite a fun bunch of people
oh well
super full of crap
haii
im tired
im dying
my face is corroding
its disintegrating
its itchy
its painful
my skin is screwed up
haiiiiiiiii.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 29.12.03
Sunday, December 28, 2003
i think its time to write something.
had a worship team retreat on friday and saturday
stayed overnight in church
that was probably one of the most fun overnights
i had this year with my friends
still remember the overnight stay in sentosa!
stayed up the whole night with neo wen and kang to play bridge
super funnnn!
haha anyway,
this retreat really cleared some stuff up for me
like, commitments in church
i want to continue serving in church
and i know i ought to give back to God the things He has given to me
but the role that God has made me now, is a student
and i have to honour God by doing my best as a student
and somemore next year is A level year
but perhaps its time this year to just step back from at least one area of serving
next year i will have an added responsibility
of heading the dance and drama ministry in youth ministry
so yeaaaa.
so i guess its time for me to step back from worship team for a year
and be back in full swing after my As.
yeppers peppers.
back to the fun night
we had supper (which was not really supper) at block 85 till around 12am
then went back to wash up and prepare for i-dunno-what
you know, those kind of stay over, then purposely dont sleep stuff..
yupp but, no one brought poker cards!!
even the guys!
oh man!
but we ended up reliving our childhood
hahah esmond leon duane and wesley came joined us girls in the outside part of the room
and we played hopscotch!
haha super funny.
but we got bored cus there was nothing else to do
and then something radical happened!
i opened a cupboard labelled games
and found a whole cupboard full of board games!!!
we were super excited.
hahha in the end we played pictionary, charades style,
plus uno, pick-up-sticks, and dominoes
haha talk about reliving childhood
yea its all good.
i cant remember what else.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 28.12.03
Thursday, December 25, 2003
i think i shall close down this blog
its dead.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 25.12.03
Monday, December 15, 2003
just got back from thailand late last night!
wheee..
it was super duper funnnnnn
well what do you expect,
six days there, and six days shopping.
went to chiangmai for the first four days.
and we thought it was no shopping at all.
but no, how wrong i was.
the night bazzar, equivalent to our pasar malams, was so frequented.
it sure helped too when our hotel was within walking distance.
really shoppers haven.
but the highlight of the trip was:
we visited the long neck tribe and long ear tribe!
really interesting.
the metal around their necks are so heavy
as in, really heavy.
the second highlight of the trip:
we watched the aqua show!
thailand is famous for that.
and chiangmai has the biggest show there.
it wasnt pre-planned.
but it was so exciting
all trans, of course
the
ladies men were super pretty
and had such great bods
but all their breasts looked so damn fake.
like pasted on.
their costumes were of such great envy
really beautiful
even the props and backdrop
all my cousin could say was:
they are damn rich.
during the performance i kind of forgot they were actually men
but right at the end of the performance,
the minute they spoke,
all that glitz and glam were gone
it all sounded like in the midst of a boy breaking his voice
quite a turn off.
there was this really really pretty trans!
like, really gorgeous.
and it was good that she didnt speak at all
if not it would have destroyed our impression of her.
haha
oh yea.
the shopping was gooooooooood.
six days!
i bought about six pairs of footwear?
five slippers (casual and formal) and one pair of shoes
many many many earrings
four bags
three pairs of shorts
one jacket
ermm i cant remember what else.
oh wells.
alls well that ends well.
oh yea my family went to take the quan jia fu!
some kind of family portrait
but it wasnt the very formal kind
with big lights and dry ice.
it was quite casual but it turned out so nice!
and its really quite big.
ermm yea!
we could take twenty shots
but we could only chose three to print
and one to blow up
(not explode lah.)
so my sis my bro and i took individual shots
it was hilarious.
uggh quite embarrassing.
hmm oh well
alls well that ends well.
oh yea!
i met yew teng at the bangkok airport!
he and his family were going back to singapore as well
and turned out that he took the exact same flight
and sat one row behind me.
hmm how coincidental.
blablabla
im gone.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 15.12.03
Monday, December 08, 2003
one week after i last blogged,
im back here to say i will be gone again
going to thailand tomorrow
for a holiday with my extended family
whoohoo~!
im so excited over the
two days of shopping
did you read that??
two days of shopping!
but there is not enough time..!
-poutt.
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i want to go on missions
next year.
definitely.
my best for His greatest glory
Godrocksmysocks (: - 8.12.03
