Friday, October 31, 2003
just got home
the sky is really beautiful
sigghhh..
deep rumbling thunder sounds
small droplets falling
and the sky is a tinge of yellow
bathing the earth in a soft golden glow
-siggghhh. simply exquisite
went shopping with sandie bev and dora
its really fun shopping with them!
helped bev find a nice skirt
from miss selfridge.
saw xiuuu at topshop
jac cheryl clara adele too..
then saw moonteng at ms
hmm anyway i saw two really nice halters
im gonna buy them tomorrow.
been saving up for a rainy day for quite some time
so i hope it rains tomorrow.
BUT!
im peeling so badly
and ive got a patch of lighter skin
on each shoulders
-wails
-whines
-cries
-bawls
-pout
so until i can find a way to mask those patches
i cant wear any of my clothing!!!
Godrocksmysocks (: - 31.10.03
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
im happy but not that happy
im sad but not that sad
im confused and probably confusing everyone else.
went out with the girlies today.
fun!
delifrance had to disappoint sandie and i again.
there are no more delipotatoes!
hmph.
but the tuna was still satisfying.
went into accessorize after that.
quite nice the stuff they have
saw many things i can buy for my sis actually
cus i dont have earholes etc etc etc.
then came the fun bit!
sandie dora bev and i went shopping!
ermm more specifically,
shopping for, ermmm, girlie stuff..?
hahaha really girlie stuff.
yea ok
xiong gu.
if you know what that is.
correct right?
ok anyway
we spent about two hours plus in that department
and i am super super satisfied with my purchase!
its really cheap!
my mum is probably really happy
cus i have began to embark on my graduation
hahah errm
oh well i had alot of fun today
took my mind off some stuff
which is a gooood relief.
haii but now,
im stuck at home, all alone with my own thoughts
and i cant help but face reality again.
the truth hurts.
but when God doesnt give you what you want,
its because He has something better to give you.
when God closes a door, He opens another.
if i just live by that, i will survive.
-
have you had that feeling..
like you are dreading something
but you just feel like something miraculous is gonna happen soon..
and you want to go forward to seek that miracle
yet you hold back because you dread to tread
Godrocksmysocks (: - 29.10.03
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
such eventful days
ok eventful
day.
yesterday.
haii satisfied, disappointed, numb.
but still grateful.
got our results back
all on the same day.
like some beeeg slap on the face.
didnt do up to expectations
but i cant complain
cus i prayed that God will give me what i deserve.
endofyear
C for maths
D for econs
D for lit
C5 for gp
C5 for chinese
ok. im glad for my maths.
maybe i should be awarded
the greatest improvement award
from an O to a B
hahah
but cus of my shite results in the midyears
my beautiful B was lowered down to C.
bahh.
i think i deserved the D for econs.
cus i suck at econs.
im just duly shocked for my lit.
haiii.
nothing to say.
except im disappointed and probably now just numbed.
-
omar/ timo
hahaha consensus?
errm i think you can answer that for yourselves
hahha
typical of omar to say that!
i bet you just dragged timo into the picture
so you wont look so dumb right..
ahha evil ehh ma omar!
bentan!!
thanks for the vcd
i thought you said
borrow from your friend
but nonetheless,
thanks!
and i already said thanks k!
before you said youre welcome!!
-
just came home from church
for dance training.
haiiii i miss dance in stnicks.
haiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..
-
dont look down on me
dont look down on what was bestowed.
dont give me that condescending glance
and pitiful face
cus i dont deserve it
fine, go bask in your self-glory
while i wallow in my abyss of psychological darkness
whatever it is
just dont look down on me
Godrocksmysocks (: - 28.10.03
Saturday, October 25, 2003
im red
im really red!
and i doubt this tan will go away any time soon
-beeeeg grinn
woke up this morning
and looked into the mirror
and saw this black face staring back at me
scaryy
but after i washed my face
it looked more red than black now
haii i think im quite badly burnt
my tan line is so obvious now
especially my shorts tan line
and the strap across my back
hahaha coool
went to sentosa again
(haha told you i would)
went with wen xiu yr sab neo kang
super duper fun
wen xiu yr and i walked so much!
from siloso beach to sunset bay
then to palawan beach and back to sunset bay
all for that kang lor!
i discovered a nice toilet
hhahaa it has the rustic rural countryside kind of touch
chao ji nice
the weather was super tempremental
one minute the sun was smiling happily
and the next big raindrops kept falling on my head
quite alot of other people
were disheartened by the rain and left
but we, the perservering ones, stayed on
and it was a blessing in disguise
each time after the rain,
the sun was so warm and comforting
played volleyball like mad
never played so much in my life before
hahaha probably got my tan from there..
but i injured my thumb again!
the one i injured during netball the other time.
well i couldnt not use that thumb
we played volleyball!
think its swollen now.
-whineyy whine whine.
wen's school friends were there too
and this butch looks like cindy!
as in really really really.
wahh it hurts each time i scratch
haii.
oh yea!
when we went to bath in the nice countryside toilet,
there was a power cut!
blackout!
haha so we had to bathe in the dark.
quite fun come to think of it.
ok i have to go now.
pw beckons me to its embrace.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 25.10.03
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
finally finished the first aid course
and all the gory and gross pictures
yuck i will never make it in the medical field
i will just be awarded
the worst nurse or doctor on earth
like fainting at the sight of blood
ughh sorry but i really couldnt take it.
poor
yunx is sick.
ehh hope you get well soon ok?
sorry your cookies kinda ended up
in other peoples stomachs
you will be the first one to get them
when i next back again ok?
cheers!
daryl:
aight man!
i will! haha my personal distributor!
cool cool.
i gotta first perfect my cookies.
the shape the colour the taste
and until i have it taste like famous amos cookies
-
going to sentosa on friday again!
yayy.
with neo wen xiu sab etc etc.
hope kang goes!
the kang better go!
cus she needs a tan. just like me.
then theres the dance thing too
at around 6pm..
going with dora and bev
xiuuuu said she will go with me too!
yayy!
mum dad and my brother are going for holiday!
this friday saturday and sunday
and my sis is gonna disappear too
so i am all alone at home
haiii
what will become of me?
Godrocksmysocks (: - 22.10.03
Monday, October 20, 2003
*FiVE DETAiLS ABOUT YOUR APPEARANCE RiGHT NOW*
[x] stray strands of hair flying about my face
[x]
pink red cheeks!
[x] my ugly but comfortable boxers
[x] itchy nose from the flying stray hair
[x] probably hungry?
*FiVE THiNGS YOU DiD TODAY*
[x] errr.. learn CPR?
[x] talk to a dummy with no legs no hands and no eyeballs
[x] ate yong tao foo after like, 2 weeks! whoaa..
[x] think about baking cookies
[x]
chide myself for looking for you not you.
*FiVE THiNGS EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW ABOUT YOU*
[x] i hate insecurity. yet it consumes me, whole.
[x] i am very emotional. and think alot. (haha right, neo?)
[x] i like to make people happy. so dont misunderstand it
[x] i absolutely abhor being misunderstood
[x] i am very difficult to understand
*MUSiC YOU LiSTENED TO YESTERDAY*
[x] Seniorita by Justin Timberlake
[x] Jesus, Lover Of My Soul by Hillsongs
[x] Beautiful One by Tim Hughs
[x] White Flag by Dido
[x] a whole lot of classical music
*FiVE THiNGS THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY*
[x] when others become happy because i made them so
[x] drawing, doodling, painting - abstract stuff
[x] suntanning!
[x] joking and making people laugh.. hahaha
[x] most importantly. performing on stage. where i can just hide behind those facades and dont give a thing about the world. and people just appreciate me for that moment, being the facades.
*FiVE THiNGS THAT DiSGUSTS YOU*
[x] people who misunderstand me
[x] when people are insensitive
[x] extreme vulgarities
[x] poseurs or people who hide behind pseudonyms and insult others. ugh childish, period.
[x] my own insecurity
*FiVE THiNGS YOU CANT LiVE WiTHOUT*
[x] my Best Friend, God!
[x] a stage. second in priority - especially acting!
[x] pen and paper
[x] my family and friends
[x] singing but not when im asked to sing. or expected to sing. or to sing in front of others. my singing is just spontaneous and because i enjoy music.
*FiVE THiNGS YOULL DO WHEN YOU COMPLETE THiS*
[x] watch tv? my sister just turned it on
[x] look for my SYF dance vcd! i cant find it. boohoohoo.
[x] eat my dinner..
[x] bake cookies after dinner!!
[x] join friendster? i dunno.
*FiVE THiNGS YOU FEEL RiGHT NOW*
[x] hungry......
[x] sleepy, sticky.. and itchy all over
[x] i gotta trust God more. much much more.
[x] constipated..? hahah
[x] missing You. i think.
-
just got home from school
after the first aid course.
madness.
but its quite interesting after all
think mira and sandie are really good nurses.
ahhaha taking over doras place
hmm wanted to go TP library with sandie
but was far too sleepy
mummy sent tricia and zhijian home too.
and now, i think i am gonna backe cookies later.
see you later alligator.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 20.10.03
Sunday, October 19, 2003
i think this entry is gonna be real long.
now no one can say im
yellow!
neither can anyone say im
white!
or in the
pink of health..
hahaha im
red.
glowing red.
glowing glowing glowing..
went sentosa yesterday
with dora sandie bev nim sara and her bf.
it was so exciting.
had always wanted to go to sentosa
had always wanted to go tanning.
and finally time permits!
we went to PS the day before
right after the current affairs test.
went to cafe cartel to eat
super duper filling.
and we were excitedly planning for the next day.
so we were supposed to meet at 10am
and harbourfront mrt control station
and guess who was there at 10am?
N-O-B-O-D-Y.
absolutely nobody.
ok i was there at 10.01am.
and the only sight of anyone else was only at 1010am
sandie and i sat on the mrt station floor
and played the
who-can-spot-nim-first game.
errrr
but oh well i won!
hahahah
then sara and her bf came.
i shant add that i was supposed to meet dora
at 930am at dhoby ghaut mrt station
and i shant tell the whole world
how she overslept and made me look like an idiot
standing and waiting aimlessly
so yea.
in sentosa.
went to palawan beach
talked a little
and took stupid photos.
realllllly stupid
and finally, dora and bev arrived
like after an eternity.
we were still eating a little,
when it started to drizzle!
there was absolutely no sun.
and we thought, thats the end of it.
ughhh!
but, God is gooooood!
it stopped raining,
and the sun even peeked out a little.
im so grateful for dora!
cus i had someone to tan with.
hahaha at least i didnt have to lie on the mat
alone.......
oooh well.
it was kinda pathetic though.
the sun i mean.
we bought sun tan lotion
and it smelt kinda nice.
i even fell asleep while tanning.
but when we decided to turn around to tan the back,
the sun disappeared.
ugh
but the breeze was heavenly
it was really really nice.
so we decided that since the sun wasnt gonna cooperate
we walked across the bridge to the
southest most point of the asia continent
like, wow..
err but the scenery was another story
it was b-e-a-u-tiful
we climbed the tall thingie there
and guess what?
yes, the sun came out again.
like.. 12345678910!
we sat on the rocks by the shore
and faced our backs towards the sun.
err trying to tan
in the end we rushed back to our mat
and found bev sandie and nim lying on our spots!!!
hahaha we kinda chased them away
to make space for our asses.
and this was time to tan our backs.
the sun was good this time
that warm glazing feeling over our skins
riiight ok stop telling me i will get skin cancer.
we kinda ended our tanning session
after nim started commenting on our redness
i took some photos of the sky while lying down
hope it turns out nice.
then i can have a confirmation for my part time aspiration
as an abstract photographer..
played truth or dare
kinda lame
i shall never play with sandie ever again.
she keeps exposing everything
haha silly girl didnt want to tan
and she was the one to get a tan the fastest
hmph.
dora and i are the ones who need it the most!
we were kinda evil to one of the waiters
especially for sandies dare.
sorry guy, whoever you are.
took even more stupid photos
under the big white balloon
then went to bathe
and left sentosa for good.
got onto the bus and saw timotheus.
what a shock.
finally had dinner at pasta mania
what a blow on my wallet
but it is once in a while that i spend so much.
oh yea! i spent moolah at cafe cartel too!
ahhhhhh..!
got home
and everyone said im black
but im not!
im red.
red and healthy!
well i had so much fun at sentosa
gotta go with neo kang they all again too
and dora wants to go again.
plus theres this dance thing on 24 oct
dora bev nim sandie and i wanna go.
so sentosa, im gonna be a frequent visitor
at least for this hols.
yayyy!
thank the Lord for dora!
my new tanning buddy.
lub yooo.
-
lorr and nat:
pity you all couldnt join us.
it would have been even fun-er!
omar:
you stalker!
haha how come you always know where i go??!
the other time it was kc
then now its sentosa.
youre freaky!
haha as you can see from everything above,
yea i did have a great time at sentosa
great great great time!
but couldnt see many washboard abs.
chey.
-
oh no my face is cracking.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 19.10.03
Thursday, October 16, 2003
i shall not be cliche
i shall not be so predictable
i shall not be so readable
i shall not..
err but i cannot help it
i cannot help but say it
i cannot help but want to say it
so here goes nothing:
EXAMS ARE OVER!!
ok ive said it.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 16.10.03
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
-- give my heart to You because
i cant stop falling in love with You
ill never stop falling in love with You
cant stop singing that.
im happy as a lark
and nothing seems too dark
for what me and You can go through
yayyy!
neoers beoers!
i havent finished my promos yet..
sadly!
i only finish (technically) on friday.
and then im finished.
haha ok our starbucks date!
i meet you after school next week..??
please
pretty please
pretty please with a cherry on top
ok, ten cherries
and a ticket to spain
hahaha set ok!
i will just die if i dont meet you all soon.
i have so much to tell you!
ever since you took your ass and left cj.
-beeeg grinn.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 15.10.03
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
altonesax:
what made you say what you said?
about the most recent post, right?
well like what i wrote above my links
dont misuderstand my blog.
perhaps you should read the post deeper
into its real intent and meaning
.. towards the end.
i dont want to say it out here
to explain what i meant in my entry on saturday.
cus that will totally undermine why i wrote it that way.
if you read it more carefully.
you would get what i am trying to say.
please dont misunderstand my blog, ok?
thanks.
-sorry if i do sound a tad little sarcastic here.
i dont mean any sarcasm.
err, yea.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 14.10.03
Saturday, October 11, 2003
ive gotten enough of your lies.
to think i actually had such faith in you
to think that i even thought you could be trusted.
ive gotten enough of being thrown into turmoil
each time i want to think.
its like this battle i have to fight
and soon, this battle turns into a war
you used to say that it was all okay.
maybe you didnt
but you simply overlooked it
and so i assumed it was.
when we both knew it was never.
am i being confusing?
dont accuse me
you are confusing yourself too.
i never understood you.
i wish i can just scream
its just a bloody facade!
its just a bloody facade!
but what is stopping me?
but is hindering me?
that very bloody facade.
you know that song by pink?
the one about
everyday i fight a war against the mirror
cant take the person staring back at me.
exactly.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 11.10.03
i think they should list shopping under cardiovascular activity.
my heart never beats as fast as it does when i see a
reduced by 50 per cent sign
adapted from
the secret dreamworld of a shopaholic
by
sophie kinsella
no wonders why the title.
for those who want to relax
and rid of tension and stress
read this book.
(probably only a delight for girls)
i did enjoy it.
-
why is it i keep thinking i do?
when i know that
when its time to face reality
the cruel hands of what i never did see coming
of what i could never behold
of what was completely beyond me
simply take it all away from me
smash me against the wall
drown me in my hopelessness
then pick up the broken pieces
crush it into a ball
and drop it right before my eyes
shattering it into smittereens
until the small pieces are totally dimunitive
then tell me
its probably the opposite.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 11.10.03
