Monday, March 31, 2003
-wake up at 9
-go back to sleep
-phone rings at 10
-wake up and answer it
-toast bread for breakfast
-study econs
-cook lunch at 12
-wake sis and bro up to eat lunch
-soap the dishes
-study more econs
-read newspaper about sars
-study even more econs
-stone awhile
-walk out to mama shop, 7-11 then ntuc
-buy self raising flour, chocolate chips, butter, vanilla essence
-come home
-change
-bake cookies
-watch tv while waiting
-eat cookies
-wash kangkong
-stomachache
-boil prawns, sotong, sausage
-make gravy half-way
-change my computer screen background
-stone again
-wander around the kitchen
-prepare dinner
-eat dinner
-feel ultra sleepy
-listen to my father¡¯s old old songs
-pull the keyboard table out accidentally
-type this crap
-post this crap
cooked so much today.. its getting to me. maybe I¡¯ll bake scones tomorrow. with jam and all. no wait. im supposed to be on a diet.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 31.3.03
Sunday, March 30, 2003
i think im strange
--
i confuse myself
i contradict myself
im fickle
im indecisive
yet i treasure things dearly
i do things on impulse
but
accept those things i would usually regret
--
told you im confusing
btw a little something to all you reading this now.. (if you don¡¯t want to justify that im strange, I suggest you don¡¯t read on)
somehow i prefer to be called ¡®esta¡¯ instead of ¡®esther¡¯. don¡¯t get me to try to state reasons why. i guess i just got used to that nick after adopting it five years ago. strange huh. distorting my own name..
for eg, pple msg me and call me esther. i find that strange. and when i read other people¡¯s blogs and they call me esther, i find it strange again. seems so foreign. no, i don¡¯t have a problem with my name. like some people, at one point of time in life, they develop this syndrome of hating their names.
no i don¡¯t hate my name. its my name after all.
but then again, to me, esta looks better..
strange? i agree.
maybe everyone will start calling me esta from the minute they read this, if they have not already. like some widespread outbreak of name-calling. still it beats what kang calls me blatantly (i shant say what)..
wen started calling me ¡®ster¡¯.. i don¡¯t mind that. it doesn¡¯t look dumb. but sab devised a way of tricking me into looking stupid.. she says, ¡°i STIR the milo¡±, purposely shouting out the ¡®stir¡¯ while whispering all the other words. say it to yourself and it sounds like you¡¯re calling me. ok enough.. i look stupid already.
to add another, poyew calls me ¡®est¡¯.. uhh im not an establishment, see? .. oooh! i see the name ¡®esta¡¯ in ¡®establishment¡¯.. try me.. or try ¡®estate¡¯ too. maybe i should drop the ¡®yong¡¯ in my name.. and add the initials of what¡¯s left to the word ¡®esta¡¯.. from esther tan yong en.. i become ¡®esta¡¯ + ¡®t¡¯ + ¡®e¡¯. get it? i become an estate.
cut the crap. i¡¯ll try to bang on the reasons now.. i can only think of one though: perhaps ¡®esta¡¯ looks more.. ¡®close to the heart¡¯???
my heart that is. duh..
ok i think what i said is really dumb.
someone shoot me.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 30.3.03
Saturday, March 29, 2003
im shocked. utterly shocked. i was on the com just now.. then my sis, who was out, called my hp. i answered. but the line was too noisy. i called her back on the home phone. and she said, open the door. i opened it. expecting her to be outside, too lazy to take out her key. but i didnt see anyone. she said there's something on the floor. i looked down. and saw this big white plastic bag. she said, its for you. i opened it, and it was a bag.
my sis bought me a bag
perhaps its all the guilt. for me vacuuming on her behalf. and getting the scolding too.
amazing.
im hungry.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 29.3.03
we just got a new com in the house. and its getting broadband too. good good good. so this old computer is chucked at the corner and self-proclaimed to be mine.. i shall slowly subtly discreetly imply that this com belongs to me.. the understatement. well all my stuff are in here. my parents' got their laptops from their office. and my brother will claim the older computer cus all his games are in there. as for my sis.. she'll probably be going overseas soon.. besides, shes in uni so maybe she'll get her own laptop. thats what my father said..
well at home everyday.. its sheer torture. woke up at past 12 today. just in time for my dad to nag me. ugh.
the whole story goes like this: my father wanted my sis to go vacuum the floor upstairs. its a duty kind of thing that we're expected to vacuum the floor. ever since my father bought 'the mermaid' from osim.. bleh. anyhow, my sis kicked a big fuss about it cus she said she didnt like vacuuming the floor. (duh who ever does) then at the same time my mum asked my sis and i to go fold the clothes. so to shut my sister up. and to keep my father from getting worked up again, and to stop my mum's nagging.. i did the stupidest thing.. i offered to mop the floor for my sis if she folded the clothes all by herself. ugh. i can kick myself ok. but then again, for the sake of everyone just shutting up so i can enjoy world peace..
so there i was, trying to digest some elasticity of demand.. and my father walks in and out of the study room, saying, "ni ji shi qu xi cheng?" (translations for those who dont understand chinese, or choose not to, it just means, when are you gonna vacuum the floor?) right.. i kept postponning it. cus its only human nature that i dread it.. finally my father said i really had to go vacuum the floor cus he need to mop it.. (with 'the genie' also from osim) darn. my sister hadnt vacuumed it for centuries. and i had to go battle the dust-field for her.
no choice no choice.. i trudged upstairs to vacuum. think i used about close to half an hour.. cus i decided to clean the back of the cupboards too. ugh. as some of you know, my nose is ultra sensitive.. i almost died there. breathing in all that wretched dust. i was perspiring so much. perspiration even went into my eye and stung it. my forehead felt like a faulty tap.
so maybe some of you are wondering.. where the antangonist of this whole story was all this while. well my darling sister was out! at her bf's house! incredible dont you think.
i felt like a maid today.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 29.3.03
Friday, March 28, 2003
i was supposed to post this two days ago. but i cldnt log onto the net..
26 March 2003
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reported to cj this morning. quite a lot of stnicks girls, i noticed. we were allotted our classes today.. and all of us from 1T04 are split all over. as for me, i was not given any class. sabk tav jeremy also. we were sent out of the audi to queue at some long long queue outside the staff room. we got kinda tired and hot so we just went down to the canteen to eat. in the end we just wrote our names and ic no. and subject combi etc etc. saw yanbin today. he appealed back to cj from aj! eleven points! caleb managed to get back in too. hopefully shuming will get called up soon. and yew teng.. think that¡¯s how to spell his name.
orientation sucked.i had no og.. cus i was too lazy to go to the facils to allot me one.. so just bummed around the place with szuyu tavia sabk mar grace etc.. xiu crashed after escaping from sa. went different ogs to just sit there and be in the world of our own. gave ourselves many breaks.. heh. there was once when the few of them got caught by the teacher. so we had to run away from the canteen. we went up to the toilet on the same level as the admin office.. wanted to just sit outside to wait for them to finish their food. but we ended up sitting IN the toilet eating. yea gross. this J2 facil walked into the toilet to chase us back to our ogs. but who cares. i don¡¯t even have an og to go back to. the orientation programme was supposed to run all the way to 430pm! but i got to escape! cus i went for drama CIP at chao yang special school. entitled me to leave at 2pm! anyway the rest of the day was just the CCA fair. i didn¡¯t go for the CCA fair during the first intake orientation either. couldn¡¯t be bothered.
went chao yang. new batch of kids. at least to me.. was qt an experience all over again. rather fun. but i was too tired and sleepy.. went kk hospital to collect medicine after that.. then figured my way home from there.. took 154 home all the way to eunos mrt station.. was on the upper deck.. and i fell asleep. woke up only when the bus driver was parking the bus at the bus bay already. and obviously i was the only one left on the bus. good thing is, at least i was supposed to only stop at the bus terminal.
my mum nags me for being online.. so all i can do is update my blog and then log off. such a neh neh..
SARS. SARS. SARS.
ok school has just terminated for a while cus of sars. no school for two weeks. my mum says, ¡°of course you cannot go out! school was terminated for the time being cus they don¡¯t want you to go out and come into contact with people..¡± crap.
now I¡¯ve got some time in my hands, I can try doing something.. instead of lazing my ass off.
1. learn to bake cookies!
2. paint!
3. get those long-awaited frames done up.. collecting too much dust
4. stretch those muscles.. losing my flexibility
5. find a new template for my blog. maybe can ask wen?
6. do something about that violin
7. straighten up my QT
8. ok face up to it.. my studies. bleh
crap.. think i wont even complete at least half of the items listed here..
Godrocksmysocks (: - 28.3.03
Tuesday, March 25, 2003
damn it. i wasnt accepted into tj. saw that word 'unsuccessful' in bold red staring at me. oh well. guess they make it red and bolded so that it will make an impact or smth. fine im not making sense. anyway its really such a pity i didnt get into tj. whatever. its so near my house.
so i'll just have to stick to cj. bleh. got accepted back into cj. withdrew from sa. cus sa's subject combi totally sucks. so rigid. cant do what i want. ahhh crap crap crap. im in cjc now! nvm. call me stupid call me dumb. alot of ppl have been doing that anyway. cus i gave up a place in sa to go cj. ppl are all dying to get into sa. and i just forgo a place like that. dumb. nvm. nvm.
went sa this morning. szuyu crashed. and xiu was late. heh no surprise.. haha met shuyun. she got 9 yet ended up in sa. very bu zhi de. went to the student's centre to slack the whole morning away. qt shiok. saw this guy with alot of air.. haha wind ehh. but who cares. im out of sa already. left to go back cj to get my withdrawal form. stupid woman at the office.. go eat your toes!
so tired and full of fatigue and letargic.. fell asleep for a split second in the canteen today. couldnt keep my eyes open. took bus home and slept the whole journey. only woke up at the bus terminal. but good thing i was supposed to wake up there.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 25.3.03
Monday, March 24, 2003
my first day in sa., and i couldnt wait to get out. took bus to sch.. just followed serena¡¯s directions and a few sa people on the bus.. and finally got to sch. safe and sound. just as i stepped into sch, xiu called me and saved me the hassle of having to go scout for her.. then while waiting to assemble, i saw quite a number of cj people around in sa.. to name a few, shihui, caihui, henry, melvin, paul, suffian, max.. etc etc.. got a lot more though. went audi for video and talks and introductions to HODs and subject combinations etc.. was super cold.. well one thing good abt sa is that we can use handphones as freely as we want. while the principal was addressing us, someone¡¯s handphone rang. for quite some time. and all she said was, ¡°the culprit please turn it off¡±.. then she smiled, and continued talking.. oh man. if it were in cj, then bu kan se xiang already. second thing good abt sa, is that we can wear any kind of socks we want.. ankle socks! cj cannot.. finally we had break but xiu and i werent hungry.. and at the time we were supposed to assemble back in the audi, xiu and i decided to leave.. the side gate was locked. there were about six other J1s zaoing too.. we were almost seen by the discipline teacher.. so we decided to be bold and walk out through the bigger gate where the cars come in.. and there, we saw even more J1s all walking out. sa security so lax ehh. heh..
xiu and i then took cab down to cj to meet szuyu.. shuming also ran out of sr to go cj. when the cab drove into the dropping point there, i just felt so welcome.. heh like its home or smth.. haha duhx. the gates at the foyer were actually shut.. and was only opened by a J2 counsellor.. we bluffed her that we were there to appeal.. haha.. saw all the familiar faces in cj.. and qt a few sec4L people there too.. well daphne (ng) kinda gave me a shock.. but im getting used to it.. ugh.
sat around in the canteen.. and everyone was like, eh esther thought you not coming back.. heh well well. saw so many people from cj first three months, who got posted to sa, in cj again.. that max lahh..
in the end i decided to go talk to brother paul to try appealing back to cj. cus sa doesn¡¯t have the combi i want. i want to take maths c, but i would have to do four subjects. which will just kill me.. bleh. waited so super duper long for a response from bro paul. and in the end xiu had to go back to sa by herself for registrations.. i felt so bad.. totally played her out.. sorry xiu! really sorry! dui bu qi! if i could say it in tamil and malay or french or spanish i would have already. but pity i dont know how to say.. heh.. some more she only found out when she went back to sa, that registrations is tomorrow. ahh.. makes me feel even worse.. bleh
xiu and i met this crazy J2 guy who kept talking to us.. he even seemed to be everywhere we went.. i have no idea who he is.. though ive seen him before in the first three months.. but still, he¡¯s strange.
my sis and mum and dad are so insistent to get me out of cj. though my father¡¯s beginning to be a little ok with me going back there.. my mum said i wont do well in comfort zone. well i was after all very comfortable in stnicks.. haii makes no sense.
so ultimately its just three choices now.. tj, sa or cj. only know my tj appeal results tomorrow. and i guess i do have a place in cj now. thing is, im in sa. awww crap.. ugh.
so i guess i¡¯ll have to report to sa tmr.. haii
btw.. did I tell you..
I LOVE MY PHONE!
Godrocksmysocks (: - 24.3.03
Sunday, March 23, 2003
yesterday was qt a happy day.
firstly: i woke up at 9plus. then irvin msged to say that can check posting at 10am. then jeremy msged to say that he got into ny.. so i went online to check. and i got into sa. yea! was actually hoping for sa most out of all my choices. didnt feel like going tj. so yea!
secondly: then i called my father to tell him i got into sa. and he took leave to come back home to discuss any appealing to any schools with me. just for the sake of me appealing, he took leave. nice dad. so went tj to appeal. i'll only know the results of my appeal on monday or tuesday. think im indifferent to whether my appeal's successful or not..
thirdly: early afternoon, my father came into my studyroom and asked me what phone i want to get. then at 3pm he drove me to parkway parade to purchase a new handphone. heh.. got the 6510. didnt want to sponge him of too much money.. if not i would have gotten the mms one. anyhow. (btw its still the same hp number)
and i collected the photos too! last day in cjc ones. and at hil's house. though it was all my friends.. my mother wld have implied that i pay for it myself. but my father paid for them! and i kept the change.. heh..
see.. my dad is super! yea! cool dad..
Godrocksmysocks (: - 23.3.03
had our class gathering at hilary¡¯s house on thurs. was kinda heart-warming.
such a pity neo cldnt go! broc kristin joanna kumutha hamzah and angeline didn¡¯t turn up either.
took bus to hil¡¯s house and got lost. got off at the wrong stop and had to walk all the way back.. good thing i met russel and mar and later carmen. went cold storage to buy stuff. which reminds me, i paid for the stuff.. doubt i¡¯ll ever get my money back. shit. anyway.. walked to hil¡¯s house. had qt a lot of fun preparing the food. especially the frozen chicken wings. because we bought it so late, we had no time to wait for it to thaw. so russel and i just ran it under water and slowly pull each chicken wing apart. it turned out qt fun after all tho it was qt painful at times. we poked satay sticks through the chicken wings after marinating them and breaking the bones.. and py poked himself instead. how dumb.. heh.. only the few of us were decent enough to help out in the kitchen while the others slacked their asses off watching tv.. haha
just as we began barbequing, it rained! the rain came then stopped. then came again and finally stopped for good. spent most of the night barbequing.. and burning a lot of chicken wings and sausages. but it was super enjoyable.. haha.. cus the people barbequing purposely kept the non-burnt food for ourselves. meiyan was so kancheong while bqq-ing. and jonji was like so pro.. clara too. shuming was so proud of the beef he marinated. it turned out nice tho. irvin just stood there providing a lot of wind.. as in, he fanned us with paper plates cus it was so hot. after dirtying my shirt by spilling drink on it, i retired from bbq-ing. and sat in the dining room to eat mashed potatoes. henry was turning red from drinking.. as in super duper red.. they had to pour the alcoholic drinks in kickapoo bottles cus hil¡¯s parents wld flip if they were to find out we were drinking.
oh yea! the highlight of the night! irvin and jonji¡¯s rapping! it was so funny and entertaining. at first they tried doing free-style. but ended up rapping eminem songs. it was amazing. they¡¯re talented! lorraine also sang bring me to life.. from the daredevil soundtrack.. which was really beautiful! somehow the conversation topic suddenly led to chinese songs.. and irvin gave his best in imitating them¡¡¡..
played speed with cheryl and SHUMING.. haha ok the caps of shuming¡¯s name was so not intentional.. heh.. ltr played bridge with that yaya henry, py and hil and candice.. shuming wanted to learn but he went off to walk meiyan out..
cheryl and I experienced qt a lot of ¡®roadblocks¡¯ as hil puts it.. hahahh
the second highlight of the night! we pushed poyew into the pool! we all stood by the pool to take a group photo. took one with the pool behind us.. then turned around to take another photo with poyew right in front of the pool.. at the count of three, abel and mark (i think) pushed py into the pool. whoo! but he managed to cling onto the side and only his bottom half was wet. he was abt to pull himself up.. and was shouting for help.. when someone else pushed him in again.. this time he went in fully. haha.. think the funniest thing was that he actually had a towel and change of clothes with him.. duh
my mum msged me to tell me not to stay out too late.. so had to leave.. so sad k. jeremy left with me.. i was so scared my mum wld be angry.. she was supposed to fetch me from the mrt station.. i ran all the way from the bus terminal. but she hadn¡¯t even reached yet! so fortunate.
carmen hilary shuming clara candice shufang lorraine cheryl daphne ruyi irvin poyew caihui seemin jayne
mar russel jeremy abel mark meiyan henry dominic musa chris jonji joshua hanson
think thats abt it
Godrocksmysocks (: - 23.3.03
Thursday, March 20, 2003
the child screams
as bombs are showered
he feels nothing but fear
and goes unprotected
the child fumbles
and falls to the ground
all he can feel
is fire around
the child runs
as buildings crumble
he wears no shoes
all through the rubble
the child cries
he cannot see
he wants his mummy
he¡¯s only three
the child stares
he continues to cry
he doesn¡¯t say a word
as he slowly dies
war in iraq just started. ugh
Godrocksmysocks (: - 20.3.03
i'm sunburnt. red. and painful. but it was worthwhile.
went sentosa on monday. met sab, szu, wen, neo, chun, yr at the bus terminal. wen was saying that just like that, seven of us take bus in to sentosa.. and they earn $21 entrance fee in one minute.
went to sijori hotel to put our stuff there. we cldnt check in yet cus it was only 12plus pm. so we took our necessary stuff and went to the beach! palawan beach rocks man. it was so fun! whee!! played volleyball.. then ate lunch. and dared each other really lame dares. think neo's one was somehow the most paiseh one. she had to go up to this guy sleeping at the table not far from us and ask if he was ok. he was around our age. that made it bad. somemore wen and my dares only involved ang mohs, who wld definitely take such dares much better than chinese ppl. so for neo it was baaad. heh. after that the poor guy cldnt get back to sleep..
after lunch we went to the sand there to lie down. and suntan. the sun was really hot. it was qt shu fu. but for the sand. cus we were perspiring. had sun tan lotion all over our arms and legs. and we had no mat or towel to lie on. so all the sand just stuck to my arms. blehh.
szu neo sab and chun and i went into the sea. it was qt gross. cus the seawater was so darn salty. we swam over to the huge yellow floating thing far out into the sea.. it was qt tiring. waddling and paddling in the water. those malay boys over on the other side were so irritatingly noisy. the whole float thingie kept rocking further and further out to sea. cus of them. in the end we just swam back to shore. it was qt scary cus my legs cldnt touch the ground for qt some time. and when i cld, i only felt disgusting moss and algae below. yuck.
at around 3pm we went back to the hotel to check in and bathe. after a while we went back down to siloso beach to cycle and blade. wen went to the bball court to play bball with oi ppl. kang and xiu came. after blading and cycling up and down for super long we went to the hotel again to wash up. wen kang neo and xiu played bridge and i tried learning. after i got the hang of it, it turned out to be super duper fun. even more fun compared to taiti!! we had our dinner in the hotel room.. neo wen kang xiu and i ate cup noodles. while sab szu chun and yr went down to the coffee house there to eat. we just whiled time away playing bridge. eating ruffles. watching tv. and talking abt stupid gossips passed around in stnicks. cldnt stop laughing.
chun and xiu went off ltr cus chun cldnt stay and xiu went some person¡¯s house with her fountain.. then yr neo wen kang and i went to the playground at siloso beach there to play. it was qt late. around 11pm like that. and was so dark. so we just kept singing songs to make ourselves feel less scared. in the end we got scolded by these few guys at the playground too. one guy said, "you want to play, play. but i dont want to hear those stupid songs" like wth. as if he owns the place. we are also citizens of spore. we also paid to enter sentosa. liberty and free will!
yr called her two oi friends to come. kiak and joel. in the end we went to the benches where there was light to play cards. szu came down to join us. sab was sleeping all by herself in the hotel room. at around 1am, yr and szu went back to the hotel room to sleep. me neo kang and wen stayed up.. at 2am like that we went to the hotel lobby instead cus there were so many flies at the beach. not to forget the cockroach.. heh. at the hotel lobby kang made so much noise by playing pool.. we cldnt go up to the room cus we had no key.. so we just played some more bridge.
at around 430am we went up to wake them up cus they wanted to see sunrise. we went back down to the beach again.. and i lost my orange rubber band on the way there. boo. we didn¡¯t manage to see the sunrise tho.. so wasted.. played bridge again.. its addictive. after morning had fully dawned we went back to the hotel again and the whole walk up the slope to the hotel, kang was practically sleepwalking.. neo and I had to push her along from behind. wen ran far in front cus we were getting kinda ¡®high¡¯ and freaked her out.
back at the hotel it was our turn to sleep.. i napped. with my contacts on. cus i was too lazy to take them out. good things they didn¡¯t hurt. we checked out at 12pm and went bk for lunch. neo and i saw max there. the cj bisexual.
then we took monorail to the beach again to play and suntan somemore. played captains ball. kang left for mainland. chun and xiu came back to join us. then julia joined us to play captains ball too. super fun. xiu is super tall. and julia can jump super high! and both of them were not in my team. sab szu and i also met florrine, chunhui, evelyn tay there. from stnicks primary school one..
in the end we left the sentosa at abt 5pm. neo came my hse to sort of wash up before we headed down to the bayshore for the T3 bbq. it was considerably fun. but neo and hil had to leave early. in the end jeremy and irvin got kinda drunk. hamant too. irvin got rather scary. on the way home as we walked out to the bus stop, irvin kept acting so stupid. he kept stopping and turning around to face mar and i. mar and i were so scared. we kept walking backwards.. good thing shuming was sober enough to protect us. jeremy was half sober.. at one pt of time irvin turned around, raised both hands and bellowed, "why are two of you so scared of me?!!?!" mar and i screamed and ran backwards, further away from him. we were so scared.. mar almost crying and i really felt like peeing in my pants. goodness. irvin kept talking so much rubbish all the way to the bus stop. (ask shuming for details) i was so relieved my bus came first. mar immediately took a cab home right after i boarded the bus. it wld never be safe for her to go home with them. one drunk, one half drunk, and one not drunk.
anyway my shoulders are hurting so much now. so red. my tan line is so obvious. think i wore the wrong top to tan. drats.
ok this is a super long entry.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 20.3.03
Sunday, March 16, 2003
my toothache¡¯s getting far worse than ever imaginable. i feel disabled. cant eat properly. cant talk properly. i guess it should be the wisdom tooth. chuili told me that if its not extracted soon, it¡¯ll grow, force my teeth out of shape and my teeth will probably become crooked. yuck.
i cant even close my mouth. cus the gum there is swollen and my upper row of teeth wld press against it. it¡¯ll only hurt more. cant eat anything solid cus i cant bite. i guess i¡¯ll have to simply drink campbell soup for dinner tonight. didn¡¯t go for the BBQ in church.. this being the reason. ugh. crap.
brushing my teeth is hell. especially when the toothbrush prods the gum accidentally. excruciating.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 16.3.03
Friday, March 14, 2003
last day of cjc. probably. that is if i dont have to get back to cj after the posting.
many J1 wore their secondary sch uniforms to sch today. like some minor revolt.. qt lame. but was kinda exciting cus we never knew if we wld get caught and have to do maintainence duty or smth. wld have been such a wet blanket. we even took a photo of the "whites".. heh.. cus the grp of us, all our sec sch uni all white.. neo and i wore the socks we got yesterday. everyone was so amused by my socks.. and the wriggling of toes.. heh.. my rainbow-coloured toe socks from wen. we were all in the foyer talking. and totally missed the assembly. qt funny..
it felt like everyone was in such a holiday mood today in school. watched movie during lit tut. a beautiful mind. went for econs lec.. and attempted the kallang wave thing.. tho it failed tremendously. mr tan let us off so early too. glad i brought my camera today. cus it sure came in handy. all the photos i took.. i cld make money by selling them. right neo? heh..
sch ended at 1230pm for us. after we got our progress reports and cleaned up the classroom.. ugh progress report. lets not go there man.. oh well. went taka food court after sch. with neo, hil, carmen, mar, jeremy, shuming, irvin, clara and dominic. haha my super-power eyes. saw through the walls ehh. heh. dominic even bought famous amos cookies for us to share. while the others were eating lunch, neo and i went seoul garden to look for wen, xiu they all. they were with their oi friends. went back down again to the food court.. and dominic was so sweet to clara. the rest wanted to go wheelock place. but i was too lazy to walk all the way there. so neo and i didnt go there with them.. saw sam wong with nat ehh.. haha
went up to seoul garden to discuss with wen and xiu our dinner plans etc. saw so many cj ppl there. even hil's wooden block was there. haha.. in the end we decided to just eat there at seoul garden. left the place only at 830pm like that. were there since 4pm? super bloated.
feel rather nostalgic now.. thinking abt the past two months plus..
Godrocksmysocks (: - 14.3.03
Wednesday, March 12, 2003
only attended two periods of proper lessons today.. had chinese and econs tut in the morning, then we zaoed out to town for breakfast. neo, carmen, hil, mar, shuming, irvin and me. went bk at far east. and saw this crazy guy who kinda freaked us out a little. he kept talking to us and singing. mad. later went back to sch for last two periods, GP. cus mrs luk let us watch movie in the library seminar room. watched sweet home alabama.. was so sleepy..
got back home so early today. for the very first time in two months plus. reached home at around 330pm. was supposed to have drama today, and go some special school for CIP. broc irvin and i waited at the foyer for so long.. but no one had turned up yet. then i said that we wld count to 100. still if no one appears, then we'll leave. so we counted to 100, and even went to the canteen to look for traces of anyone there after that. but there was no sight of anyone, so we just left. waited for nothing.
was not exactly anywhere near the pink of health.. so decided to come home early. neo went with wen to the sauna.. took 154 home and missed my stop. so spent another half an hour getting home from where i got off. so frustrating. and my head's still throbbing. haii
Godrocksmysocks (: - 12.3.03
Monday, March 10, 2003
such a bother to live in Singapore. yes i should be grateful that singapore is safe and all that. but it still sucks. everyone strives to score. what paper chase. its a wild goose chase if you ask me. everyone wants to be the best. never settle to play second fiddle. what cant everyone just relax. praise a child if he does well. punish him if he doesnt. give recognition to those who do well. but what about those who have put in effort?
i really want to quit school. just not my cup of tea. i just want to stop studying. and enrol into drama school. and go solely into theatre.
whats the use of studying when i cant ever do well. whats the use of studying when i dont have the confidence. whats the use of studying when i wont ever use it in future.
i'm just not cut out for studying. i cant study. and i just feel so stupid all over again when i see ppl around me doing so well. yea sure, 6 points and all that crap.
reality hits you in the face when you least expect it.
ugh
Godrocksmysocks (: - 10.3.03
anyway, i applied for tj as first choice. no choice, so near my hse. i know a few other people (from cj) who applied for tj as first choice too. tj rankings just went down cus of A level results. that day when hilary, shuming, jeremy and irvin were talking abt staying in cj, i was still contemplating about it too, since the rankings have gone up and the value-added has increased.. but i dunno. i guess i just dont like adapting to new environments.
also found out that we have to combine drama grp with some other grp. i really don¡¯t want. cus i like my own grp.. what a pity. such a shame that chao yang special school didn¡¯t need us back for anymore sessions. oh well.. for the sake of that one CIP point. sacrifices..
haha latino hunk just msged me. so swt
Godrocksmysocks (: - 10.3.03
just some thoughts.
Blood is thicker than water I know
But sometimes water flows superior
The world seems to fade to grey
When she makes me feel damn inferior
Her words they cut like jagged knives
Against my weathered face
The truth hits me hard and fast
My dignity misplaced
Says whatever she wants to say
Not thinking about how I feel
Dark clouds overhead roar with rage
As rain fall like sheets of steel
She won¡¯t say I¡¯m stupid
But implies that I¡¯m not smart
She¡¯s self-indulgent and conceited
To me she¡¯s got no heart
Downright stupid, downright inferior
Cower in a corner and cry
Stare through the shroud of wretched tears
Feel I want to die
whatever.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 10.3.03
Sunday, March 02, 2003
i'm beginning to wonder. whether 12 will earn me a place in vjc. evelyn's seniors said that 12 probably can get in but some said second intake cannot take TSD. that is what worries me. is my dream of studies theatre and drama gonna be what i always say.. whimsical?
Godrocksmysocks (: - 2.3.03
Saturday, March 01, 2003
YOU EAT PEOPLE!!!
what's YOUR deepest secret? brought to you by Quizilla
very funny
oh no! neo: rem u always said im a carnivorous ...
Godrocksmysocks (: - 1.3.03
Haircuts
The Difference Between Men And Women
Women's Version:
Woman 2: Oh! You got a haircut! That's so cute!
Woman 1 : Do you think so? I wasn't sure when she gave me the mirror. I mean, you don't think it's too fluffy looking?
Woman 2 : Oh God no! No, it's perfect. I'd love to get my hair cut like that, but I think my face is too wide. I'm pretty much stuck with this stuff I think.
Woman 1 : Are you serious? I think your face is adorable. And you could easily get one of those layer cuts - that would look so cute I think. I was actually going to do that except that I was afraid it would accent my long neck.
Woman 2 : Oh - that's funny! I would love to have your neck! Anything to take attention away from this two-by-four I have for a shoulder line.
Woman 1 : Are you kidding? I know girls that would love to have your shoulders. Everything drapes so well on you. I mean,look at my arms, see how short they are? If I had your shoulders I could get clothes to fit me so much easier.
Men's Version
Man 2 : Haircut?
Man 1 : Yeah.
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Godrocksmysocks (: - 1.3.03
