Wednesday, January 22, 2003
i really gotta thank py todae! really thanks so much! well i'm kinda happy today. but somehow the happiness seems to have faded away. just slightly. but still happy tho. haha..
hmm got maths homework to complete but i'm getting so lazy and procastinate like mad. i really gotta get serious!
hmm i really pray i can get into vj. to take TSD! but dunno.. or maybe go la salle. or NAFA. but considering the amnt of money my parents wld have to pay. its kinda scary too. a totally new environment and exposure.
u noe, my father actually mentioned smth abt getting me my own computer last year. but u see, that was last year. well cus my brother keeps downloading rubbish onto the computer and i'm just so scared that one day the com will crash. all my precious writings and stuff saved in the com too. but since then my father never did mention anything again abt a com. so i guess its just a dream forgone.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 22.1.03
Monday, January 20, 2003
i'm so irritated again! i wanna get a new email account. i wanna chg my email add. but every single email add that i wanna chg to are all taken! crap man! who's that big fat dumb ass that used all my fav choices. even the add "whimsicaldreams" is used! who's that ass?! go away!
Godrocksmysocks (: - 20.1.03
hmm time to thank shuming. thanx! for the new template. its really amazing. ok i can feel the burning desire within u for all the credits. so yupp. thx!
hmm found out alot of stuff today that i wish i never did know. but well i wont die.
went town after sch to meet alecia. in the end hilary and shuming joined us. and we treated ourselves to crystal jade with the help of a $30 voucher that hilary so generously donated for our use. (thanks hilary!) alecia was practically stuffing her face. it took all the firmness in me to stop her from eating yet another plate of deep fried wings. she claims she's on a diet u see.
ok since ive found out
some certain stuff.. i must forget! must must must must must must must!!! i will simply be killing myself if i dont.
came back home and was simply so spaced out throughout dinner. my mum asked if i cared to share. but didnt feel like.
congrats to my brother. he won the doubles match he played for his sch in the nationals inter-sch badminton competitions. for primary sch. its amazing too cus i never knew my brother was really that good. trashed the opponent qt badly. ha good for them.
ugh this is a very very boring entry i have no idea why i'm even going to post it. just dont get depressed after reading this tho. just ignore me.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 20.1.03
something
something comes something goes
something has got friends and foes
something sucks something stinks
something doesnt want to think
something stupid something dumb
something waits for someone to come
something falls something cries
something doesnt want to die
something bitter something sad
something did something very bad
something confused something messed
something has got lots to confess
something secret something hidden
something feeling so damn rotten
the turmoil of my emotions within is just so hard to explain. i'm also not very sure why i'm feeling like this. i really have no idea why i'm sinking into such depression. someone
HELP ME
Godrocksmysocks (: - 20.1.03
Sunday, January 19, 2003
wow u see.. yiwen did such an amazing job for my blog! its so much nicer than my previous. i was just sitting there being totally amazed by what she did to improve my template. totally clueless man.
ok but horrors of horrors. i never noticed the template that i chose was the exact same one as shuming's! oh dear. now my blog looks like a replica of his. and i feel so paiseh to get yiwen to do up another template for me.. how how how? eh shuming.. pls dont get the wrong idea that i 'copied' u or whatsoever k.. it was seriously unintentionally.
perhaps it just means that geniuses think alike.. heh
Godrocksmysocks (: - 19.1.03
Saturday, January 18, 2003
at yanrong's hse now. they watching manchester u match. so noisy cus everyone stuck at one corner of the hse. hmms ok i'm qt happy now. cus i can finally fit into this pair of shorts that i cldnt fit into last year. so what does that mean.. it means that my shorts became bigger after being stashed in the corner for more than half a year.
its been one month and 9 days since i got knocked down by that car. and my knee still hurts. ugh can someone tell me how to heal my ligament. it sux can. cant do anything at all. cus its just so darn irritatingly irritating.
i thought i cld get $750 compensation. but how wrong i was. its not that i get into accident then can anyhow claim money. it has gotta do with activities that happen in sch. such a waste. anyway i cant either cus the report has to be made within 1 month after the date of the accident. well i only knew abt it seven days too late. drats.
i just breathed in a whole lot of smoke man. cus we were playing with sparklers. and burnt a whole lot of them in a pile. was making the word "4D".. well i tried taking a photo of the thing burning but ended up breathing all the smoke in. i almost suffocated. think still got some smoke in my lungs lor.
btw it was really kind of an adventure to yanrong's hse. was kinda confused abt which bus stop. ended up walking aimlessly in the rain. and finally got to the bus stop, got up the bus and guess what! i met yanrong's cousin! wow! amazing right. so she brought me to yr's hse instead. so i wasnt lost in the end. and it was rather an adventure. we went coronation plaza to buy chocolate and she gave a xiang xi tour of coronation plaza while waiting for the rain to stop. then she walked me to yr's hse and told me abt the hses we passed. like one hse had a goat and chicken (which always crossed the road) and another hse has 3 beeeeg dogs. as in really big! it was so freaky.
oh i kangwei and i agreed to exchange phones. hers is 3610. yea! its very nice in my opinion. i want that phone ultimately. wanted 6510 at first but now decided its not really to my liking. ok my eyes are dancing on the screen. and i suddenly feel like i'm floating.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 18.1.03
waiting for time to pass so i can go yr's hse. i have no idea how to go tho. so i guess i'll just get lost on the way and then try to get yr to fetch me from some place or smth. going to be such an adventure man. im so excited. feel e excitement? ...
Godrocksmysocks (: - 18.1.03
Friday, January 17, 2003
my class is ok now. i guess it wasnt a problem with them. the problem was within me. i was just kinda.. u noe.. nvm if u dont. well my class is just amusing. cus i see the amusing side to it. and i guess thats the way it shld be.. as in i see the class how i want to see it. and by saying it sux im making myself miserable. but after all that i've said.. all the crap i've sprouted. the bottom line is: i still miss 4 diligence. i guess i will never stop missing it. cus it holds so many memories. i really cant wait to see all e 4D ppl tmr! only a few hrs away.. less than 12hrs. counting...
Godrocksmysocks (: - 17.1.03
warped and twisted
under my finger under my toe
i'm nobody's friend i'm nobody's foe
deep dark secrets hidden within
crushed my soul; no longer livin'
wrapped around my little finger
delightful taste of heaven lingers
an empty space, an empty chair
rise from the floor to find it not there
cant recall all that i've said
thread dandelions; make a wreath
dignity and self-esteem now bereaved
ashes to ashes dust to dust
leave me alone, damn, make it fast
impending doom, inevitable
stumble along. weak and feeble
dont ask when and dont ask why
many promises but even more lies
dream im drowning in a river of pain
refuse to open my mouth to call ur name
teeth are grit. hands are fisted
say goodbye. i'm warped and twisted
ok that was just one of my sad sad poems. wrote it last year but somehow it just describes my feeling right now. life is so confusing.
where have all the flowers gone. where are all the beauty queens. the world is warped, that i know. curse someone as u sing hymns. isnt it so true. just some thoughts to make ppl think while i myself am not.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 17.1.03
im so tired and my knee is still killing me. my mum's nagging cus i use e computer non-stop. my television is spoilt too. the picture just doesnt come out on the screen. its just a total piece of black black black thing. had some econs quiz today. and my grp didnt study i guess. well i tried answering my econs lecturer's qns. and she looked like bao qing tian when i answered correctly. i knew she just didnt want to admit i got the right ans. well i told woonyong e ans for another qn and ms ho practically smiled and grinned and gleamed and glowed and smirked and "tittered". ok i knew she was about to wink at woonyong if not for the stares she got from 1T04. poor jamie. he was a poor target of ms ho's fetish for guys.
you boy, whats that bag doing in front of you? take that bag away! i want to see your face!
absolute despo if u ask me. i guess she cant help it. considering from the
BEAUTIFUL skirt she wore todae. i wrote a song for her. and well i have some confessions to make. i said i "loved her" and that i "will follow her".. i'm sorry i lied. i'm really sorry.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 17.1.03
ok thanx alot. i just read shuming's blog. and well he called me a bimbo. hey im not ok. i only act bimbotic u see.. and it like only happens in front of certain ppl. actually just one person only. ha guess who.. no prizes for correct answers tho. cus its so obvious
Godrocksmysocks (: - 17.1.03
was kinda high todae. just one of those days when my mood swings super high. haha cldnt keep still thru-out e whole lecture lor. and my classmates were saying i was blushing.. hahah this guy from my orientation grp was sitting in frnt of me and towards the end of the lecture he turned around and said. "esther, ure amazing. u cant stop talking" .. haha wats new right.. hmm wrote a poem in my book todae. shall type it here...
when i'm cavorting out among the clouds
and streams of stars go shooting through
i'll reach out my hand to catch just one
and bring it down to u.
when i'm surfing out in the big, big ocean
where the waters are a crystal blue
i'll bring some happy waves back home
and keep them just for u.
when i'm prancing out in a sunflower field
where there are flowers and bees and nectar too
i'll make a bouquet, a splendid one
and arrange it just for u.
when i'm bored and lonely, all alone
and have absolutely nothing to do
i'll doodle on paper and smile to myself
and simply think of u.
when i'm deep in slumber, lost in dreamland
where fantasies come true
i'll weave a dream, it'll be delightful
and it'll have just me and u.
hmms oh well.. oh yea todae ran for that stupid bus 605.. but missed it.. i caught up with e bus and even banged on the door but e stupid ass of a bus driver didnt stop e bus.. idiot!! summore i ran k.. and my knee not recovered yet.. and now its hurting and aching even more.. ugh.. he ought to pay compensation k. for my injury.. and all my medical fees.. and buy me crutches. and a wheelchair.. and give me the privilege to take bus free for the rest of the year.. hmph.
Godrocksmysocks (: - 17.1.03
Thursday, January 16, 2003
so super sleepy but kinda sianed todae.. cus todae kinda sucks also. ugh.. really pissifying. haii my class kinda sux now. dun believe ask neo. i just pray i can really get into vj after 3mths. so i can bai tuo cj's crap life. aiyas my knee is hurting more now. last time only when i bend it or squat or kneel or run etc then it'll hurt. but now even when i merely walk it hurts. walk only lor!!!!!!! crap! but haha at least i got to skip pe todae. they had to run 8 rounds lor! poor thing. neo was walking lahh. haha and i was just sitting on e grandstand growing fat.. hmm i will have to really exercise man. hope to see all of u at yanrong's hse this sat! yea!!!
Godrocksmysocks (: - 16.1.03
Wednesday, January 15, 2003
ohh hey this is kinda fun actually.. but what e heck. im so tired now but kinda happy. i cant wait for saturdae got 4D class gathering. yea! miss 4D so much. =(
Godrocksmysocks (: - 15.1.03
Saturday, January 11, 2003
think this is how u get a blog or smth. neo was telling me abt it and asked me to go get one. said qt fun. so just try lor
Godrocksmysocks (: - 11.1.03
